Kiss The Rain - Yiruma

umat (n): a ballbreaker. avoid at all costs.

medentry's lagging on me cause everyone's on it trying to cram. darn it! oh well, i guess it saves me looking at yet another fail. section one suckssss! TT_TT

anyways, had the japanese mornign at monash university eysterday. adn it REALLY opened my eyes up abotu the seriousness of this subject. im throwing it off as a 10% subject but man, seeing the competition, *panic. the lecture was essentially repetitive. she was basically reinforcing what we've already been alerted of. the practise convos were funny though. but if i walk into taht exam room mispronouncing wakaranai and suki, GRRRR.
after that, i had lunch with nina and diana. that was fun. i had strawberry crepes, udon noodles finished with strawberry MILKtea. i did not want the milk. but god i felt so full afterwards. cause i had dinner shortly after i came home. and i just wasted my life typing this.

anyways i was going to post the photos up on facebook but i really cbf. bleh.

anyways its 12.25. i had a purpose for this blog but i really cant remember. IT WAS SOMETHING IMPORTANT I WANTED TO REMIND MYSELF. but ive failed to. :(

ps. I MISS FANFICS OMFGGGGGGGGG

pss. im listening to a nice song :)

and omg im tired

The Black Death

HELLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOO
god it feels like its been decades.
guess what blog? im wathcing ECLIPSEEE with my mum after the UMAT. WOOOOOO.
i cant waitttt!!!!
i feel soo bad. i just decided to do my english homework at recess tmr with diana darling (<3) aishhh.
i just want to sleep and read. i read UGLIES yesterday by scott westerfeld ITS SO GOOOOD. God i feel so much love for reading lately. :S chotto hen datou omou but meh.
i read a book about the plague too. its really interesting. like..there was this disease getting carried by rats. but everyone was like "THOSE FUCKING CATS ARE KILLING US. KILL EM ALL" but it was the rats. the book i read was about this vampire guy who hunts cats...lol its got more to it then that. bahahahah ....ehe
OMG THE OTHER DAY. MY STUPID NEICE TORE A TWILIGHT POSTER OF MINEEEEE. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
GODDDD I STILL FEEL PISSED. SHE TORE EDWRADS NECK. for the first time in my life, i scared the shits out of her. serves that fag right. just wait till she goes to kindy. HOPE SHE GETS FAT AND BULLIED. urgh kids TT^TT *mourn

but yeah. hi bye woooo weeee :D im on formspring atm. SOMEONES CALLING ME CHUNKYYYYYY. i liked it better when i was fat. PWAORRRRRRR FEEL MY FLUBBER MTHRFKERSSS. :( no..no, i dont. chunky is such a disgusting word. its like....meat? ew. someone is calling me meaty. but i have meat. but still! it just sounds disgustnig when you tell someone that. its like...idunno *zone out.

listening to: ECHO BY SNSD echo echo echo echooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
feeling: tired, OMG I SHOUDL SLEEP. hai good idea.
its past 12 god i spent more time on ths shit then i htought bAHHAHAHAHA
NIGHTY NIGHT
SAYONARA
agaku agaku agaku yurete
yume no yume no yume no
haraaaa~
:)
i probs got the lyrics wrong.
well then goodnight
YOU BETTER RUNNNN RUNN RUNNN RUNN RUNNN or im gonna come after your balls~ (8)

If you werent trying to suck the blood out of the girl i love...nah i'd still hate you

check out that jaw

E-C-L-I-P-S-E
i finally saw it. WOOO. and right from teh very start it was AMAZINGGG. David is an AMAZING director. like omgg. best movie everrr. and the action was real good too.
in this movie in the novel, it is very much centered around edward and bella, their conflict involving jacob and their marriage. But in the movie, it was all very much about Victoria from teh very start. which is good i guess, it avoids all the unnecessary awkward moments we saw in the previous two movies.
alice cut her hair again. jasper got his shining spotlight.
i loved the flashbacks of the wold tribal story, of rosalie, and of jasper. they were cool. emmett got uglier. and buffer. jacob got blacker. edward got whiter. rosalie got paler.
kristen stewart was a GREAT bella in this one. i think in the previous two, she misinterperated her character bella in the novels. cuas she portrayed bella as a really pessimistic, emo, serious girl in a tragedy. but its not. WE FINALLY GOT TO SEE BELLA SMILEEEE IN ECLIPSE. she seemed more bella-ish, more in character, less awkward. Cuase the previous two movies did her no mercy. ive seen her act in otehr movies and she CAN act. quite well. seh got uglier in this movie tho. but i guess its understandable. cuase she has to look STUNNING when she becomes a vampire. so its smart to make us see her as ugly for now.

edward and jacob kissing was really nice. they made it real. oh shit i wrote edward and jacob haha. BELLA nad jacob. i was scared kristen would make the scene look really unemotional and stoned. BUT IT WAS GOOOOD. she was tearing up TT^TT.
I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO MUCHHHH AHHHHH. ITS GOING TO SCOPP UP ALL THE AWARDS AGAIN. it was orgasmic. this movie had my laughing, crying, grinning, covering my eyes, jumping, awwing. yeah teh cinema loved me.
the start and end of the movie tied it up very nicely. like a neat litle package. at the start they were in the meadow, adn the end, in the meadow. and its different to the previous two in that it doesnt leave a cliff hanger. cliff hangers leave me thinking about the next movie. they finished this off peacefully, which left me in a good mood, not all WAT NEXT? so i could fully appreciate eclipse. i lovelovelovleoveit!

RILEY WAS MOTHER EFFING HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

i cant wait till it comes out on dvd. i really cant. SPECIAL FEATURES O MITAI. breaking dawn is going to be a real challenge for them. the whole goddamn thing is very much written on emotions. Kristen has a challenge up ahead. but i reckon she can do it. wont get to see her smile anymore though =-=. I WONDER WHAT RENESME WILL LOOK LIKE. that little shit.

and last of all, they showed the trailer for TOMORROW WHEN THE WAR BEGAN OMGGGGGGGGG. I CANT WAITT. SEPTEMBER. exams TT_TT so ill watch it after and get hte dvd. I CANTT WAITTT. the casting looks good too. exactly what i had imagined the characters to look like when i was reading the book. the movie will be epic.

But nothing beats eclipse- book AND movie :)

ps. rob pat looked better. HE ACTUALLY SMILED NICELY.

blast from the past

I found my USB from like..a few years back so i plugged it in to see what my life was like back then LOL.
i found fanfics, pictures that anna saved on it of hot guys, an essay on the Vatican City (oh lord), the female reproduction system (pe?) andd OLD SCHOOL MUSICC.
and it got me feeling really nostalgic casue they bring back memories of events, people, blah. So i was listening to a few of them god i miss those kpop back then. when there were solo artists. cause with the girl/boy bands these days, i cant tell any of the members apart. i miss se7en, crown j, rain, boa, minwoo and the multiple versions of baby VOX haha.

These were some of the songs i was so into back then. i miss my old ipod :(

^ yuki no hana - mika NAKASHIMA (LOVELOVELOVELOVEEEE HER)
^ violet sauce (& spicy remix) - Namie Amuro
^ OUR LOVE ~to my parents - BoA
^ LOVEJUICE - Akanishi Jin ( i used to think this song was cute. until i realised it was in english - unbelievealy and that the LOVEJUICE was cum. and the whole goddamn song was about orgasms ==)
^ Talk To Me - Crown J ft. D.Brown
^ Jewel Song - BoA (always reminds me of IT class with Crystal)
^ Filth in The Beauty - The Gazette
^ Passion - se7en
^ miss you - m-flo <3 melody.
^ The M Style - Minwoo ft. tablo
^ Ti Amo - Fahrenheit ft. Hebe
^ Seperation Story - Lee Ji Hoon
^ Once In A Lifetime - Shinhwa
^ LALALA - BIG BANGGGG (i-i-i-i like the realsh**)
^ KEY OF HEART - BoA (charming donghaeee )
^ Tabu - TaeBin and Teddy RAWR

aww i miss them all. my family and i made a pact a few summers ago to visit ALL the beaches around us, including PORTSEA. and these songs remind me of those roadtrips all over the place. aishhh. summers are too cold now. and im over hte beach.

pretties, peeps, p***orn, pissed

ARGHHHHHH I SAVED THIS POST, AS A DRAFT
THEN I CAME BACK
AND POOF IT WAS GONEEE
AKSLJFLKSJDKDSJFDLKSAFJSDL
and i cbf writing it all over. so ill just write about other stuff.
ive been sick so no hw :D cause im too sick *wink wink nudge nudge. im sure you all understand.
so ive been reading instead. cause im not THAT sick. ;). yesterday i read peeps and pretties. and let me tell you O.M.G. yes i am the next usher. these books are soooo goood !!! id give these like...a thousand O.M.G or "a whole helen" for those who have read pretties.
my friend Hang recommended them to me last year. but i was still into the whole "NO ILL NEVER BETRAY TWILGHT *WARCRY stage. But now that ive read it..O.M.G, i love scot westerfeld.
i recommend peeps. it freaks the heck out of me. i like that. its basically about people who have been infected with this parasite that meaks them super horny so they can infect otehr peopel adn tehrefore create a massive army of parasite carriers who can then combat the enemy parasite. LOL. sounds cute. like..zombies gone wrong. i think its a series too. if not, THE ENDING IS WAYY TOO OPEN ENDED. but i think it is a series so should be fine.

Pretties is a series too and iw as stupid enough to, unfortunately, pick uo teh second part of the series. so i was lost throughout the whole novel on eveyrthing. Cucase dudde the chick talks TOO much about her past. so i was just like O-O. But the loveline is cuteeee.

The Scarpetta Factor, i read two days ago, is alright. becuase guess what? it was a series and i was stupid enough to, unfortunately, pick up the THIRD book in teh series. and they kept mentioning the past too. T_T and the past sounded so much better then the present T_T. The crime was gay. all i can remmeber is that some stooge raped some dead chick for 2 days using a latex glove as a condom. What i got out of it? Latex gloves are useless. not strong enough. the sperm just comes flying through. i also learnt that if you're dead, you wont get pregs T_T.

so yes. SCOTT WESTERFELD <3 i have rediscovered my love for reading. except for year of wonders. its not that thrilling once you've read through it once and realised how shit it actually is. TT_TT

and the essay topic doesnt even relate.
we sacrifice parts opf ourselves to belong in a group. or osmething...

like wth. i wouldnt be trying to conform if the town was dying of an isolated plague. JUST GET HTE HELL OUT OF THEREE. duh? dumbasses.

but then again, our herione does doesnt she? after she bangs the priest when his wife dies.


god ive just effectively ruined the novel.

Welcome To The Underworld

"He could no longer protect her with his strength so he did the only thing he could do-he protected her with his life -he protected her with his last remaining breath"

*CRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY

:(

i read the ending to "welcome to the underworld" today, a few hours ago. andddd yet again, a hot hotttt character was killed off. TT_TT like wth.
And it made me really sad, not just becuase he died, but becuase the author potrayed really well how life is a pointless fuck. You're there one moment, with all the traits that make you a unique person, and the next you're gone, a nobody, as useless as the next dead corpse. Which essentially makes life pointless true? so im basically just living for nothing. cause i cant escape death anyways. but im not really scared of dying. if there's a really nice and pretty after life i want to die early. before 30. so i dont end up stuck inside an old body for eternity. maybe thats why theres dead babies and children and stuff. to balance out the after life. bahahaha. im not a loony. just. really. scared. of. getting. old. it freakss me out. i dotn know how ill deal with life if i get to teh age of 30.
im scared of people around me dying though. i die a little inside when my parents get a year older. cause that means theyre getting older. thank god i distanced myself from my grandma when she was dying.

and god that came out wrong.

i just dont want anything to happen to my family, friends, my chickens. but my chickens keep dying. maybe ill see them in the after life haha. they need steel balls to handle the melbourne weather. yesterday, edward ran away from homeee. our neighbour came to tell us one of our chickens was running around on the road. waht a stupid chicken. my mum bought it inside so i could play with it. it was soo cute, clucking. i really hope it doesnt die.

i think i need to go to a church. become a nun jk jk. i just havent prayed in a long timee. the last time i prayed, i swear to god, that god came to me. i was in year 5, i used to pray every single day before going to bed, and i always ended sleeping before i could finish my prayer but anyways it was after school and my mum was at doctors so i had to wait a little longer. and pussy mini-me got scared cause mansfield street is like..full of nuts -myself included haha jks. and then randomly, i felt as if god was there with me, or someone supernatural. i bet it was god. cause then i felt so much better and i didnt feel alone anymore. and then i think i got scared that someone was there in my head cause i stopped praying since.

maybe i need to start again casue i feel so lonely. theres no one to talk to. well there is, but i dont know what to say anymore. i cant even sustain a conversation. i dont even knowww what im feeling. just lonely, its been weeks, i blow it off but aish, i just really feel it now.

maybe its just year twelve. god i really hate myself this year. ive been the laziest flying shit ever. at the start of the year- back when i had a hot chemistry tutor RAWWWWWR, he said i shouldnt care about sacs. when theers a sac, just study for exams instead. cause if i do well my marks will go up anyway. just get consistently average grades. and so ive been getting B+ but now, i wonder why i ate his words up. god just cause he looks good. but ive totally screwed up now. i wish i was addicted to school. like my sister <_<. who can say "AN A? WHATT omg im dropping this subject then. AN A?". im going to be a big disappointment to my whole family tree, but ill leave it to my sister to patch it up. ill stick with the title as twilight freak.

which reminds me, ive cancelled eclipse day. no one wants to go and i feel like im pressuring them to go even though im not doing anything.. i got pissed. for nothing. now i feel like shit. cant help it if im so sensitive with twilight righttt?

and i want to either die REALLY peacefully, or REALLLY dramatically. one or the other. i either get poisoned and die in my sleep, orrrr i get shot, stabbed, bombed (im not loony) so that the last feeling im feeling before i die is pain. god that sounded so sadistic. i just want to feel really human in my last seconds. and whats more human then pain? acutally i dont want to get stabbed. thats jst scary. i dont want a death that will have me piss in my pants. and i dont want my blood to go everywhere. too messy. bahah imagine my gravestone : UYEN PHUONG HUA, Lord bless her she was bombed to death.
BHAHAHHAHAHAHA LOOOOOOL. its amusing. but then theres be nothing of my to bury :/ cuase id be in bits. and bonesss will get called to the scene. :D but then id be all over the place. ew. maybe if i get thrown off a cliff. but i dont want to drown. :S i hate drowning. it makes my nose feel funny. maybe shot then. but this is just if i die. not saying i want to die. just if i had to. i dont want to get cancer or old or anything. thats too scaryy. lying in hosiptal connected to thousands of needles shoving shit in your system. kyahhhh i have to get a blood test soon. im scared shitless. itll probably be what if feels like to have a vampire eating you. itd be so good to be a vamp, eternal youth. then ill turn everyoen around me too then eveyrone can stay as they are. omg imagine a really old person got turned. theyd be old foreverrr. god that would kill.

and god ive been writing for an hour. i should have written this in my personal diary instead but who gives a fuck. The underlying message is that a hot guy died and i hate myself.
but hey, im just gonna knock it all off as PMS. yeah baby~~~

ps. im sorry for using god's name so much. i jstu realised haha. ill be back to delete this post sometime laterr when i can be fked. god i should stop talking to myself ==

monkey magic

Bahahahah just finished work an hr or so ago. It was sooo busy with only two people. And there was this really agressive dude that came in. he wasnt even a customer, just wanted a cash out. which we couldnt do so he went all RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. and i didnt know what to do so i just ignored him. which made him go all apesht. i think he was high on speed or something cause he was all shaky and his eyes twitched - but that might have been because he was angry. or both.

Hold Your Breathe - Keri Hilson & timberland is a good song. lol. Turn it Up - TOP isnt T_T. autotuned much? and he says monkey magic funny. it sounds like MOOOOOONKY MAAAAAJIIIIC. But he is smoooking in his MV *drool. Artists need to get over digitilising their voices. im getting sick of skipping to the next song and the voice sounds the same. like a computerr singinggggg.

I cantttt wait for We Fell In Love 2!!! <3>

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