scattered thoughts...

around ten more days till atar :/
i havent really given it that much thought but i did just then
and omggg
i realised id be pretty shattered with a below 90
and i also realised that im probably gonna get an 87-88
if that happens, UoM bach of science. lol ..which kind of gets me nowhere
sometimes, i have creepy dreams where i get enters of 55.14, 76.95 and "below 30"

but upon reflection, i guess the exams wehre i could have done better overall would be only busines management and english..and chem where i lost a mark i knew the answer to doh!
with subjects like methods, sure i did shit, but the stuff theyput on there, i didnt know how to do it anyways.
so i guess my atar result would be..fairly accurate? arggh i cant get over english.

do i regret procastrinating so much this year? nah im so glad its over and i will continue to procastrinate...like with this uni app ive been working on since forever..ill do it tmr
i did work really hard in the lead up to exams though, but i dont think anyone believes me. and when i did "procastrinate", i was on vcenotes.com wehre i was sort of learnig too LOL.

i dont really feel free yet
ill feel free after i get my uni offers
but right now im so lost
its all i think about
uni uni uni

cuase whilst my atar cannot change now, i can still decide my uni.
AND I NEVER REALISED UNI PREFERENCE ORDER WAS SO IMPORTANT
i need to change that asap
cause i have like...finance as my second choice or something
i do not want to do finance.

man im gonna hate the 13/14th. relatives would be ringing home going "WHAT DID YOUR DAUGHTER GET" im sure we all know.
and then there are those relatives with children doing year 12 too
the competitive ones. ahhhh

anna thuy told me a funny story once about how some people flip their numbers around if they get shit.
eg 59 = 95.
HAHAHAHHA i wanna do that. unless i get 88
then thats pointless
what if i get 86 :O
or if i got 86.94 or somethign i can be like...
94.86 hehehe

but in all honesty im not gonna have fun with my atar. cause if its shit, ive been owned. vcaa will ahve the last laugh. bitches