so hi. howve you been?
life has been hectic but i still feel like ive achieved nothing.
my cousin gave birth to triplets today and the doctor actually took photos of them taking the baby out of her cousins split open stomach. it was really strange to look at. naturally. but amazing too. to see three little lives be welcomed to the big wide world.
two of them were regular in size and the third one was smaller. so my cousin cradled that one in her arms and thats when it opened its eyes and looked up at its mumma. how cute. it was the first of the triplets to open its eyes and see its mummy. but yay, congrats to her. she'd been takinog really good care of her babies during her pregnancy and the doctors said it was amazing she could nourish three babies to such sizeable ones LOL. she gave birth 1.5 months prematurely too and thankfully they wont have to encapsulate them into little bubbles. so proud of my cousin!
but it has further firmed my desire to keep my eggs lonely and incomplete. which is pretty much a dealbreaker across all chromosome XY but see if i care. lol its so weird how we have eggs inside us. chickens, fish and i have at least one thing in common. eggs lol. and maybe our mental capacity.
anyways, i came here to say hi. now that i have done so, until next time.
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Friday, May 24, 2013
Hi blogger. How have you been? Ive been pretty shit. All around me are broken hearts, I open a book and its a broken heart too.
My heart is broken too. Tmr is the memorial service for a student of rmit pharmaccy. I dont know if I should write this on a public blog. I did not know him personally. But it hurts. You flick through all the faces youve seen, trying to pick him out. I did not know him and i wont ever get to. I did not know him but we had a common goal in this education. We shared the same group of pharmacy, and it feels close to home. You think about everyone in your life right now and I have no idea how id survive if someone close to me passed away. Death is terrible, it is f*cking cruel. It is unrelenting and we all have to face it one day. We're going to be reduced to ashes, and I want before I go to have experienced wonder and to have left something positive behind.
Take care everyone look after yourselves :)
Sunday, May 5, 2013
unfit for society
you know how in korea people are obsessed with identifying each other according to blood group? well wtf why? its not like your blood cells are ramming rays of stubbornness into you. its not like theyre forcing you to be cheap. they dont make you more prone to being a kind hearted soul.
im a strong strong hella strong believer in you are who you are because of you. keyword: you. You are your own creation. yes parents, friends, the environment can influence you, manipulate you or change you, but you are still the holder of your own decisions. your body and your mind is your instrument and every thought and action that leaves it comes from you. jupiter covering mars when you were born does not make you a destined hero, your palm line being 5cms short does not mean you die at 20. your father beating you does not justify you beating your own child, your friends doing drugs does not make it fit that you do drugs.
lezzz be honest. jupiter does not give two fucks when you're born during its orbit, a palm line does not map out your entire life before youve made your decisions and youre not a robot for the people in your life. if you are, its because you let it.
i guess it just comes down to the fact that im not a believer in fate or destiny. i think thats a bit cocky of humans to think anything gives a shit about us but us lol. we so desperately seek to answer all the mysteries of the universe including 'who are we'? we are simply a small segment of space. stars are chemicals floating in space. we decide to look at it and go 'oh look. if we join the dots theres a lion holy shit this defines me' i myself love reading horoscopes (aries!) and labelling myself as fkjrklgf becuase aries are said fkjrklgf. but at the end of the day who we are cannot be tailored down to anything. truths change, people change, we change. if someone is careful with their money, that doesnt necessarily mean they are CHEAP. maybe they have yet to see something they wish to splurge on. my life line tells me im ambitious, my head line tells me im not ==. i can be ambitious with some things, and utterly a disgrace at others. at the end of the day how can you label yourself as anything definitely. just sit back, do what you want to do, say what you must and be what you want to be. just dont judge me cause im born in march lol. and im not going to hell if mars is orbiting over heaven.
Which blood type do you think i am? i can relate to both types, but im also the polar opposite of both types. get your act together erythrocytes.
From wiki:
Type A
ambitious, rigidly organized, highly status conscious, can be sensitive, care for other people, are truthful, impatient, always try to help others, take on more than they can handle, want other people to get to the point, proactive, and obsessed with time management. People with Type A personalities are often high-achieving "workaholics" who multi-task, push themselves with deadlines, and hate both delays and ambivalence.
Type B
a contrast to those with Type A personalities. People with Type B personality by definition generally live at a lower stress level and typically work steadily, enjoying achievement but not becoming stressed when they are not achieved. When faced with competition, they do not mind losing and either enjoy the game or back down. They may be creative and enjoy exploring ideas and concepts. They are often reflective, thinking about the outer and inner worlds.
im a strong strong hella strong believer in you are who you are because of you. keyword: you. You are your own creation. yes parents, friends, the environment can influence you, manipulate you or change you, but you are still the holder of your own decisions. your body and your mind is your instrument and every thought and action that leaves it comes from you. jupiter covering mars when you were born does not make you a destined hero, your palm line being 5cms short does not mean you die at 20. your father beating you does not justify you beating your own child, your friends doing drugs does not make it fit that you do drugs.
lezzz be honest. jupiter does not give two fucks when you're born during its orbit, a palm line does not map out your entire life before youve made your decisions and youre not a robot for the people in your life. if you are, its because you let it.
i guess it just comes down to the fact that im not a believer in fate or destiny. i think thats a bit cocky of humans to think anything gives a shit about us but us lol. we so desperately seek to answer all the mysteries of the universe including 'who are we'? we are simply a small segment of space. stars are chemicals floating in space. we decide to look at it and go 'oh look. if we join the dots theres a lion holy shit this defines me' i myself love reading horoscopes (aries!) and labelling myself as fkjrklgf becuase aries are said fkjrklgf. but at the end of the day who we are cannot be tailored down to anything. truths change, people change, we change. if someone is careful with their money, that doesnt necessarily mean they are CHEAP. maybe they have yet to see something they wish to splurge on. my life line tells me im ambitious, my head line tells me im not ==. i can be ambitious with some things, and utterly a disgrace at others. at the end of the day how can you label yourself as anything definitely. just sit back, do what you want to do, say what you must and be what you want to be. just dont judge me cause im born in march lol. and im not going to hell if mars is orbiting over heaven.
Which blood type do you think i am? i can relate to both types, but im also the polar opposite of both types. get your act together erythrocytes.
From wiki:
Type A
ambitious, rigidly organized, highly status conscious, can be sensitive, care for other people, are truthful, impatient, always try to help others, take on more than they can handle, want other people to get to the point, proactive, and obsessed with time management. People with Type A personalities are often high-achieving "workaholics" who multi-task, push themselves with deadlines, and hate both delays and ambivalence.
Type B
a contrast to those with Type A personalities. People with Type B personality by definition generally live at a lower stress level and typically work steadily, enjoying achievement but not becoming stressed when they are not achieved. When faced with competition, they do not mind losing and either enjoy the game or back down. They may be creative and enjoy exploring ideas and concepts. They are often reflective, thinking about the outer and inner worlds.
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