scattered thoughts...

around ten more days till atar :/
i havent really given it that much thought but i did just then
and omggg
i realised id be pretty shattered with a below 90
and i also realised that im probably gonna get an 87-88
if that happens, UoM bach of science. lol ..which kind of gets me nowhere
sometimes, i have creepy dreams where i get enters of 55.14, 76.95 and "below 30"

but upon reflection, i guess the exams wehre i could have done better overall would be only busines management and english..and chem where i lost a mark i knew the answer to doh!
with subjects like methods, sure i did shit, but the stuff theyput on there, i didnt know how to do it anyways.
so i guess my atar result would be..fairly accurate? arggh i cant get over english.

do i regret procastrinating so much this year? nah im so glad its over and i will continue to procastrinate...like with this uni app ive been working on since forever..ill do it tmr
i did work really hard in the lead up to exams though, but i dont think anyone believes me. and when i did "procastrinate", i was on vcenotes.com wehre i was sort of learnig too LOL.

i dont really feel free yet
ill feel free after i get my uni offers
but right now im so lost
its all i think about
uni uni uni

cuase whilst my atar cannot change now, i can still decide my uni.
AND I NEVER REALISED UNI PREFERENCE ORDER WAS SO IMPORTANT
i need to change that asap
cause i have like...finance as my second choice or something
i do not want to do finance.

man im gonna hate the 13/14th. relatives would be ringing home going "WHAT DID YOUR DAUGHTER GET" im sure we all know.
and then there are those relatives with children doing year 12 too
the competitive ones. ahhhh

anna thuy told me a funny story once about how some people flip their numbers around if they get shit.
eg 59 = 95.
HAHAHAHHA i wanna do that. unless i get 88
then thats pointless
what if i get 86 :O
or if i got 86.94 or somethign i can be like...
94.86 hehehe

but in all honesty im not gonna have fun with my atar. cause if its shit, ive been owned. vcaa will ahve the last laugh. bitches

i whip my hair back and forth

GARNIER FRUCTUS CHANGED THEIR SMELL/
AND IT SMELLS GOOD ENOUGH TO EAT
ONOMNOMNOMNMONMONMOMNM

its even better than their old smell

I did something that amused myself today.

i was chucking stuff onto my ipod and you know when theres a new software update theres that pop up thingy? usually i just click cancel but recently my ipods been lagging so i was like ok 'download and install'
and then this pop up comes up saying itll delete all(IN BOLD) my "media" so im thinking songs? vids? games?
ok whatever "accept"

and then it starts downolading and then it starts syncing my ipod and tahts when i waslike oh shit SYNCING?! cause i manuall ymanage all my shit. so that means itd be ERASING ALL MY STUFFFF

but then if i cancelled id probably be fucked so i let it
then it said "backing up itouch" or osmething so i was like ok breathe
i let it "back up" for like..another hour or so..
then i clicked back to see it syncing again so im like wtf is it deleting all my "media"?

so i googled it
to find out if i just lost all 14 gigs of my data
and yahoo answers had "no it shouldnt unless oyu restore it"
so i was like PHEWWWWW
i look back at my ipod
and it said "restore in progress"
THEN I PANICKED
AHHHHHH

i went back on itunes to see if i can like,,click undo or something
but it sai d"back up in progress "
so i googled back up in progress
and yahoo said thats when the ipod takes all the shit off your ipod, updates firmware, then reinstalls all your shit.
so then i was relieved again :)
and then i laughed cause yahoo and google are like..archenemies but somehow..they helped eachother
and helped me
to calm down
:)

right now, itunes is saying "restoring applications" which is kind of giving me a heart attack (APRIL LOVES BLACK COFFEE brownie points if you know what i mean)
and my ipod says "sync" so im confused but meh. hell might break loose if i press cancel :)

ive just wasted my life and your life with this wtf-is-the-point story but i LOLED. which deems it worthy of recounting :)

btw, how catchy is orange caramel's mini album? the third song has been sung in like..a billion different languages though. LOL



and fml, its all gone. ZILCH. ZERO. NONE. GONE. 16 GBS GONE. SNSD GONE.

aish new year, new music?

I LOVE READING

recently to kill time, ive ben rereading all the books ive bought thees past eyars. and i ahve got to say, I WANT MOREEE
I SERIOUSLY NEED TO ACUCMULATE ENOUGH MONEY
AND GO SHOPPING
TO BUY ME A LIBRARY
to buy list:
rose by any other name
chain of hearts
st jude, cat and carmel (or w/e its called)
davinci code yeeee ;)
all of the tomorrow series
the elle chronicles
uglies

i might give richelle mead a try :/ (so sry edward)
need to read ALL of agatha christie's collection


i need a fking library card





and im sincerely sorry literature for my shitass spelling. and im sorry that i sitll love twilight. and fking up the engo exam.


edward <3

WAAAAAA

i miss being a highschooler.
I FEEL OLD
I FEEL PEDO
I FEEL 1984
CABBAGE
I DONT WNAT TO BE OLD
I DONT WANT TO GROW UP
I WANT TO BE YOUNG
FOREVER
FOR.
EVER.

edward you lucky son of a bitch

Studying

I was studying for chem. and i was meant to learn a whooooole lot of postivies and negatives of cells, energy sources blahblah. but then when i was studying the uses of oil, a story popped out for me. so i drew it up. who knows maybe itll be of some use to you too! :D



so this is what i get from it:
a LIMITED SUPPLY of oil is running through the river (think BP and the gulf of mexico). notice how its so smoothly running through the water? (<_<) EASILY TRANSPORTED !!

and as its runnign through the water, we can see that is has various uses. the red guys using it to cook pancakes, the green army dudes using it to burn people, america is using it for molah and bp is using it to kill fish. so basically..it has MANY APPLICATIONS. and the dead fish also bring forward the point that oil can result in ENVIRONMENTAL DAMAGE.


but i guess it probably would have been more effective to sit and memorise.

An Eternity of Eclipse - Con.Template

“Let me tell you something about ‘Love’, Teacup,” he began seriously, staring at me with conviction in his eyes.

“Love is over-the-top lust in its most powerful form. It weakens humans – blinds them into believing that there is a certain magic in the world that could be attained through the mere acts of ‘love’ when in truth, such illusions do not exist. All that exists is Lust and what’s left is just companionship. You humans mistaken the two separate logic and combine them into one – thinking that companionship coupled lust equates to ‘love’ which is not true at all. Lust is lust and when you’re in lust, you enjoy someone else’s companionship for all that is worth and over-the-top Lust is when you would kill anything that threatens to the companionship you cherish so much away – which is something you humans mistaken for love.”

He smirked, the city lights twinkling behind while I stared at him. “So to answer your question, no Gracie, I’m not in love with you nor will I ever be. Love is an illusion, it is not a silly thing I allow myself to fall fool too.”

finally heading into exam stage

i dont like you similar triangles. i. just. dont. sneaking up on me like that >:[

so now i have to work harder for exam 2. 2 days to up my average. i want to score within 1 standard deviation from the mean score. LOL probability ^^ aishhh tad late.
this is gonan sound crazy but ill miss methods. dont ever want to forget what i learnt. ... .

ps. thank god my hayfever went away. all those meds eyedrops nasal sprays really worked. woo!

but fk you english.

MY HOOKERS SO FUNNNNAY

lj hooker says:
i wonder how they award students for Acadmeic Acheivements
Uyen says:
LOLL
A WHOLE LINE OF EM
imagine
at eassembly
announcing who got over 90
they probs make it who got over 99
lj hooker says:
theydont' even need to announce eacch studetns one by one
just call up each class collectively!
ROFL
Uyen says:
LOLOLLL
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
THEY NEED LIKE
A NEW STAGE
lj hooker says:
"Class 12.1+2+3+4+5... for over 99.9"
Uyen says:
"dux guys please lineup here"
lj hooker says:
"...and please stand really close to each other because there's another class coming up soon.."
lj hooker says:
(Y)
'ALL THE NGUYENS, NGOS, PHAMS, LES, BUI, TRANS, BUIS, CHUNGS, LIMS, TANGS....etc...please make your way up onto the stage please


lj hooker says:
yyyyeEEEAAAh
*drool
i love my fuckalicious GD

night before the methods exam

"cant risk a second titanic"
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

40 quotes

1. rebel from teh waist down
2. history has stopped
3. sooner or later, they were bound to get you
4. the feeling of stepping closer to his grave
5. suicidal folly
6. if there was hope, it lay in the Proles
7. child heros
8. DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER
9. not interested in the next generation
10. all history was palimpset
11. who controls the past controls the present, who controls the present controls the future
12. purpose of marriage was to beget children for the service of hte party
13. black moustachio'd face
14. war is peace, freedom is slavery, ignorance is strength
15. bloody fool
16. normal for parents over 30 to be afraid of their own children
17. thoughtcrime does not entail death; throughcrime IS death
18. every movement scrutinised
19. sanguine (expression) / quiet optimism
20. orthodoxy is consciouness
21. act of self-hypnosis
22. perhaps the Brotherhood existed!
23. hope persisted
24. political act thrown against the party
25. corrupt to the bones
26. realise their power
27. he loved big brother
28. false memory
29. pain, fear and humuliaiton
30. the birds sang, the Proles sang, the Party did not sing
31. the last step...ministry of Love
32. belonging to another time
33. dirt int eh creases of her face
34. Party members had no spare time
35. we are the dead
36. we're not dead yet
37. they cant get inside our heads
38. i have not betrayed julia!
39. all you think about is yourself
40. he had won the victory over himself

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

business management lecture

yesterdaaaay (?) or the day before cant remmeber, nhuy, maria, anna and i went to a business lecture. it was a good start. but when lunch break came, we decided to take a '3-hour' lunch break LOLS.

i think there was a glitch in our system or something cause we did all this random shit. im lucky i didnt have much money on me.
THERES THIS REALLLLLLLY NICE LOLLYSTOREEEEE I WANT TO GO BACK TOOOO. AHHHHHHHH LOLLLIES EVERYWHEREEEEEEE
i bought a lollipop anddd JELLY BELLYYYYY YUMMMMM YUMYUMYUMMTMMMYMUMUMYUMYM

and during these three hours, i think we've learnt more then we would have if we stayed.
i learnt:
- citysavers last only 2 hours
- if tehres plastic in your food, throw a tantrum
- nandos has big servings
- priceline rips you off on pawpaw
- maria is very picky
- LOLLI LOLLI LOLLI POP
- photoworld has the cutest toysss
- we're all tbs at heart
- lol i bought a random cardigan and randomly decided to get changed in a photobooth
- your face
- raspberry slurpies are disgusting
oh and theres less then 28 days left till english exam. be afraid...BE VERY AFRAIDDD

tehres probs heaps of typos in this postt ill be back to edit.
if i ceebs
lol
bye
..






BOO im still here
ok jyane

first week of holidays gone...

- MAKE EM WAITT
- kaiwa no renshu
- sleep sleep SLEEP
- eat
- WGM
- 2 essays
- H2SO4
- umat results
- bye monash
- paradise kiss
- minesweeper
- probably lacking vitamin d
- late nights
- read twilight
- read eclipse
- "GUI LA"
SHIT I HAVENT PAID FOR VTAC

what sort of mother are you?

i saw something really bad once after school.
tehre was a small boy, around 5 i'd say. prep. his mother - very young, was riding a bike and attached was a leash, connected to this young boy. who in the right mind could expect the young boy to be able to catch up with his mum, who was riding fast, on the road. surrounded by cars.

it was shocking.

and as if she wasnt doing anything wrong, she turned around and said to the young boy
"HURRY UP YOU F*CKING SON. I DONT HAVE ALL DAY"
The boy was soo helpless, so small, too scared to speak up, so instead tried to run faster before the leash pulled him to the ground. He had a big bag on as well. he wanted to cry, but he didnt. he was puffing. he was tired.
his mum then discarded her cigerette onto the road, where he was running. so that she may ride faster.

and so i couldnt help but cry for this little boy. he was the smallest kid ever. big eyes, brown hair, uniform too big for him.and he just ran, as if he was used to it.

i wished i had the courage to speak up and say something -but i dont cause i suck at this social justice stuff. or just stab that bike.
cause although there are many things happening in this world that are far worse, a child shouldnt live a life where his own mother cannot love him. he should have an actual childhood of fun and laughter, not taunting memories of his junkie 'mother'.

so to him:
i hope you are well. and dont follow your mother's footsteps when you grow older. work hard in school, get a good job, stay healthy and stay strong, dont smoke. and although your mother is a bitch, at the end of the day, she's still forked out money for you to go to school. that MUST mean something right? if that is all she can offer you, make use of it.
and maybe one day, you can return the favour. God bless

waiting to get uncapped

what to do what to do. i dont want to go through it again
cbf but i cant help it. i suck at making the right decisions. i hate it when i have two options but i choose the wrong one. but i cant help it.
i should, but i wont. i know, but i cant. i have to, but i dont.

*stab

VCE and family e,
shinde kudasai. soshite, anata no family tree mo shinde kudasai. arigatou.
uyen yori

got my japanese practise sac back today. thank god it was a practise haha. when sensei came to talk to me i dunno why but i just cried. i dont belong in that class lol. at the start of the year, my horoscopes said that if i dont focus on my weaknesses, it will be my downfall. and omg its so right. but its so hard with japaense. you cant jst sit down and study it. you ahve to use it, expose yourself to it. godammit. cbf with that shit man.
and i realise that i REALLY suck at general conversation. i find it ok to talk about like...technology or japaense food, culture, shoes, holidays etc. BUT I SUCK MAJORLY AT TALKING BAOUT MYSELF. probs cuase im so boring. all i could get out was twilight, bones, im very busy in yr 12, yr 12 is hard, i had a pet roast chicken. T_T

and i have shit vocab. so i cant really talk about myself properly. meh.

i got my mid years back. double meh. numbed it out of my brain HAHA. never knew a letter on paper could mean so much. at least i didnt get a D. i was dreading that. I NEED A GOOD UMAT NOWWW. i wish we got htese resutls earlier. so id take umat more seriously. studied earlier TT_TT. aish

but i was reflecting (yes i reflect) and i realised i need better exam strategy. cuase i go in tehre, zoom through the exam, take a break then just read over my answers. and i really need to take multiple choice more seriously. i cbfed and guessed a few of them in the exam. and i need to study more seriously.
lst year and this year it was reading notes then doing practise exams, congratulating myself for the questions i got correct, and telling hte ones i got wrong TO GO DIEEEE.
it was pretty amusing actually.

until the results came.
at lesat im motivated now. hope it lasts the last few months.

I SAW ECLIPSE AGAIN. hottest shit ever. riley and edward (L) riley was cast really well. god. why did he have to die TT_TT

and you knwo what ticks me off. when guys blame everything on PMS. ITS SOO ANNOYING. cant girls have emotions too? gosh. like..has it ever occured to you dude that you just might be an asshole? yeah. think about it.

but yes. Eclipse was good.

Kiss The Rain - Yiruma

umat (n): a ballbreaker. avoid at all costs.

medentry's lagging on me cause everyone's on it trying to cram. darn it! oh well, i guess it saves me looking at yet another fail. section one suckssss! TT_TT

anyways, had the japanese mornign at monash university eysterday. adn it REALLY opened my eyes up abotu the seriousness of this subject. im throwing it off as a 10% subject but man, seeing the competition, *panic. the lecture was essentially repetitive. she was basically reinforcing what we've already been alerted of. the practise convos were funny though. but if i walk into taht exam room mispronouncing wakaranai and suki, GRRRR.
after that, i had lunch with nina and diana. that was fun. i had strawberry crepes, udon noodles finished with strawberry MILKtea. i did not want the milk. but god i felt so full afterwards. cause i had dinner shortly after i came home. and i just wasted my life typing this.

anyways i was going to post the photos up on facebook but i really cbf. bleh.

anyways its 12.25. i had a purpose for this blog but i really cant remember. IT WAS SOMETHING IMPORTANT I WANTED TO REMIND MYSELF. but ive failed to. :(

ps. I MISS FANFICS OMFGGGGGGGGG

pss. im listening to a nice song :)

and omg im tired

The Black Death

HELLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOO
god it feels like its been decades.
guess what blog? im wathcing ECLIPSEEE with my mum after the UMAT. WOOOOOO.
i cant waitttt!!!!
i feel soo bad. i just decided to do my english homework at recess tmr with diana darling (<3) aishhh.
i just want to sleep and read. i read UGLIES yesterday by scott westerfeld ITS SO GOOOOD. God i feel so much love for reading lately. :S chotto hen datou omou but meh.
i read a book about the plague too. its really interesting. like..there was this disease getting carried by rats. but everyone was like "THOSE FUCKING CATS ARE KILLING US. KILL EM ALL" but it was the rats. the book i read was about this vampire guy who hunts cats...lol its got more to it then that. bahahahah ....ehe
OMG THE OTHER DAY. MY STUPID NEICE TORE A TWILIGHT POSTER OF MINEEEEE. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
GODDDD I STILL FEEL PISSED. SHE TORE EDWRADS NECK. for the first time in my life, i scared the shits out of her. serves that fag right. just wait till she goes to kindy. HOPE SHE GETS FAT AND BULLIED. urgh kids TT^TT *mourn

but yeah. hi bye woooo weeee :D im on formspring atm. SOMEONES CALLING ME CHUNKYYYYYY. i liked it better when i was fat. PWAORRRRRRR FEEL MY FLUBBER MTHRFKERSSS. :( no..no, i dont. chunky is such a disgusting word. its like....meat? ew. someone is calling me meaty. but i have meat. but still! it just sounds disgustnig when you tell someone that. its like...idunno *zone out.

listening to: ECHO BY SNSD echo echo echo echooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
feeling: tired, OMG I SHOUDL SLEEP. hai good idea.
its past 12 god i spent more time on ths shit then i htought bAHHAHAHAHA
NIGHTY NIGHT
SAYONARA
agaku agaku agaku yurete
yume no yume no yume no
haraaaa~
:)
i probs got the lyrics wrong.
well then goodnight
YOU BETTER RUNNNN RUNN RUNNN RUNN RUNNN or im gonna come after your balls~ (8)

If you werent trying to suck the blood out of the girl i love...nah i'd still hate you

check out that jaw

E-C-L-I-P-S-E
i finally saw it. WOOO. and right from teh very start it was AMAZINGGG. David is an AMAZING director. like omgg. best movie everrr. and the action was real good too.
in this movie in the novel, it is very much centered around edward and bella, their conflict involving jacob and their marriage. But in the movie, it was all very much about Victoria from teh very start. which is good i guess, it avoids all the unnecessary awkward moments we saw in the previous two movies.
alice cut her hair again. jasper got his shining spotlight.
i loved the flashbacks of the wold tribal story, of rosalie, and of jasper. they were cool. emmett got uglier. and buffer. jacob got blacker. edward got whiter. rosalie got paler.
kristen stewart was a GREAT bella in this one. i think in the previous two, she misinterperated her character bella in the novels. cuas she portrayed bella as a really pessimistic, emo, serious girl in a tragedy. but its not. WE FINALLY GOT TO SEE BELLA SMILEEEE IN ECLIPSE. she seemed more bella-ish, more in character, less awkward. Cuase the previous two movies did her no mercy. ive seen her act in otehr movies and she CAN act. quite well. seh got uglier in this movie tho. but i guess its understandable. cuase she has to look STUNNING when she becomes a vampire. so its smart to make us see her as ugly for now.

edward and jacob kissing was really nice. they made it real. oh shit i wrote edward and jacob haha. BELLA nad jacob. i was scared kristen would make the scene look really unemotional and stoned. BUT IT WAS GOOOOD. she was tearing up TT^TT.
I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO MUCHHHH AHHHHH. ITS GOING TO SCOPP UP ALL THE AWARDS AGAIN. it was orgasmic. this movie had my laughing, crying, grinning, covering my eyes, jumping, awwing. yeah teh cinema loved me.
the start and end of the movie tied it up very nicely. like a neat litle package. at the start they were in the meadow, adn the end, in the meadow. and its different to the previous two in that it doesnt leave a cliff hanger. cliff hangers leave me thinking about the next movie. they finished this off peacefully, which left me in a good mood, not all WAT NEXT? so i could fully appreciate eclipse. i lovelovelovleoveit!

RILEY WAS MOTHER EFFING HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

i cant wait till it comes out on dvd. i really cant. SPECIAL FEATURES O MITAI. breaking dawn is going to be a real challenge for them. the whole goddamn thing is very much written on emotions. Kristen has a challenge up ahead. but i reckon she can do it. wont get to see her smile anymore though =-=. I WONDER WHAT RENESME WILL LOOK LIKE. that little shit.

and last of all, they showed the trailer for TOMORROW WHEN THE WAR BEGAN OMGGGGGGGGG. I CANT WAITT. SEPTEMBER. exams TT_TT so ill watch it after and get hte dvd. I CANTT WAITTT. the casting looks good too. exactly what i had imagined the characters to look like when i was reading the book. the movie will be epic.

But nothing beats eclipse- book AND movie :)

ps. rob pat looked better. HE ACTUALLY SMILED NICELY.

blast from the past

I found my USB from like..a few years back so i plugged it in to see what my life was like back then LOL.
i found fanfics, pictures that anna saved on it of hot guys, an essay on the Vatican City (oh lord), the female reproduction system (pe?) andd OLD SCHOOL MUSICC.
and it got me feeling really nostalgic casue they bring back memories of events, people, blah. So i was listening to a few of them god i miss those kpop back then. when there were solo artists. cause with the girl/boy bands these days, i cant tell any of the members apart. i miss se7en, crown j, rain, boa, minwoo and the multiple versions of baby VOX haha.

These were some of the songs i was so into back then. i miss my old ipod :(

^ yuki no hana - mika NAKASHIMA (LOVELOVELOVELOVEEEE HER)
^ violet sauce (& spicy remix) - Namie Amuro
^ OUR LOVE ~to my parents - BoA
^ LOVEJUICE - Akanishi Jin ( i used to think this song was cute. until i realised it was in english - unbelievealy and that the LOVEJUICE was cum. and the whole goddamn song was about orgasms ==)
^ Talk To Me - Crown J ft. D.Brown
^ Jewel Song - BoA (always reminds me of IT class with Crystal)
^ Filth in The Beauty - The Gazette
^ Passion - se7en
^ miss you - m-flo <3 melody.
^ The M Style - Minwoo ft. tablo
^ Ti Amo - Fahrenheit ft. Hebe
^ Seperation Story - Lee Ji Hoon
^ Once In A Lifetime - Shinhwa
^ LALALA - BIG BANGGGG (i-i-i-i like the realsh**)
^ KEY OF HEART - BoA (charming donghaeee )
^ Tabu - TaeBin and Teddy RAWR

aww i miss them all. my family and i made a pact a few summers ago to visit ALL the beaches around us, including PORTSEA. and these songs remind me of those roadtrips all over the place. aishhh. summers are too cold now. and im over hte beach.

pretties, peeps, p***orn, pissed

ARGHHHHHH I SAVED THIS POST, AS A DRAFT
THEN I CAME BACK
AND POOF IT WAS GONEEE
AKSLJFLKSJDKDSJFDLKSAFJSDL
and i cbf writing it all over. so ill just write about other stuff.
ive been sick so no hw :D cause im too sick *wink wink nudge nudge. im sure you all understand.
so ive been reading instead. cause im not THAT sick. ;). yesterday i read peeps and pretties. and let me tell you O.M.G. yes i am the next usher. these books are soooo goood !!! id give these like...a thousand O.M.G or "a whole helen" for those who have read pretties.
my friend Hang recommended them to me last year. but i was still into the whole "NO ILL NEVER BETRAY TWILGHT *WARCRY stage. But now that ive read it..O.M.G, i love scot westerfeld.
i recommend peeps. it freaks the heck out of me. i like that. its basically about people who have been infected with this parasite that meaks them super horny so they can infect otehr peopel adn tehrefore create a massive army of parasite carriers who can then combat the enemy parasite. LOL. sounds cute. like..zombies gone wrong. i think its a series too. if not, THE ENDING IS WAYY TOO OPEN ENDED. but i think it is a series so should be fine.

Pretties is a series too and iw as stupid enough to, unfortunately, pick uo teh second part of the series. so i was lost throughout the whole novel on eveyrthing. Cucase dudde the chick talks TOO much about her past. so i was just like O-O. But the loveline is cuteeee.

The Scarpetta Factor, i read two days ago, is alright. becuase guess what? it was a series and i was stupid enough to, unfortunately, pick up the THIRD book in teh series. and they kept mentioning the past too. T_T and the past sounded so much better then the present T_T. The crime was gay. all i can remmeber is that some stooge raped some dead chick for 2 days using a latex glove as a condom. What i got out of it? Latex gloves are useless. not strong enough. the sperm just comes flying through. i also learnt that if you're dead, you wont get pregs T_T.

so yes. SCOTT WESTERFELD <3 i have rediscovered my love for reading. except for year of wonders. its not that thrilling once you've read through it once and realised how shit it actually is. TT_TT

and the essay topic doesnt even relate.
we sacrifice parts opf ourselves to belong in a group. or osmething...

like wth. i wouldnt be trying to conform if the town was dying of an isolated plague. JUST GET HTE HELL OUT OF THEREE. duh? dumbasses.

but then again, our herione does doesnt she? after she bangs the priest when his wife dies.


god ive just effectively ruined the novel.

Welcome To The Underworld

"He could no longer protect her with his strength so he did the only thing he could do-he protected her with his life -he protected her with his last remaining breath"

*CRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY

:(

i read the ending to "welcome to the underworld" today, a few hours ago. andddd yet again, a hot hotttt character was killed off. TT_TT like wth.
And it made me really sad, not just becuase he died, but becuase the author potrayed really well how life is a pointless fuck. You're there one moment, with all the traits that make you a unique person, and the next you're gone, a nobody, as useless as the next dead corpse. Which essentially makes life pointless true? so im basically just living for nothing. cause i cant escape death anyways. but im not really scared of dying. if there's a really nice and pretty after life i want to die early. before 30. so i dont end up stuck inside an old body for eternity. maybe thats why theres dead babies and children and stuff. to balance out the after life. bahahaha. im not a loony. just. really. scared. of. getting. old. it freakss me out. i dotn know how ill deal with life if i get to teh age of 30.
im scared of people around me dying though. i die a little inside when my parents get a year older. cause that means theyre getting older. thank god i distanced myself from my grandma when she was dying.

and god that came out wrong.

i just dont want anything to happen to my family, friends, my chickens. but my chickens keep dying. maybe ill see them in the after life haha. they need steel balls to handle the melbourne weather. yesterday, edward ran away from homeee. our neighbour came to tell us one of our chickens was running around on the road. waht a stupid chicken. my mum bought it inside so i could play with it. it was soo cute, clucking. i really hope it doesnt die.

i think i need to go to a church. become a nun jk jk. i just havent prayed in a long timee. the last time i prayed, i swear to god, that god came to me. i was in year 5, i used to pray every single day before going to bed, and i always ended sleeping before i could finish my prayer but anyways it was after school and my mum was at doctors so i had to wait a little longer. and pussy mini-me got scared cause mansfield street is like..full of nuts -myself included haha jks. and then randomly, i felt as if god was there with me, or someone supernatural. i bet it was god. cause then i felt so much better and i didnt feel alone anymore. and then i think i got scared that someone was there in my head cause i stopped praying since.

maybe i need to start again casue i feel so lonely. theres no one to talk to. well there is, but i dont know what to say anymore. i cant even sustain a conversation. i dont even knowww what im feeling. just lonely, its been weeks, i blow it off but aish, i just really feel it now.

maybe its just year twelve. god i really hate myself this year. ive been the laziest flying shit ever. at the start of the year- back when i had a hot chemistry tutor RAWWWWWR, he said i shouldnt care about sacs. when theers a sac, just study for exams instead. cause if i do well my marks will go up anyway. just get consistently average grades. and so ive been getting B+ but now, i wonder why i ate his words up. god just cause he looks good. but ive totally screwed up now. i wish i was addicted to school. like my sister <_<. who can say "AN A? WHATT omg im dropping this subject then. AN A?". im going to be a big disappointment to my whole family tree, but ill leave it to my sister to patch it up. ill stick with the title as twilight freak.

which reminds me, ive cancelled eclipse day. no one wants to go and i feel like im pressuring them to go even though im not doing anything.. i got pissed. for nothing. now i feel like shit. cant help it if im so sensitive with twilight righttt?

and i want to either die REALLY peacefully, or REALLLY dramatically. one or the other. i either get poisoned and die in my sleep, orrrr i get shot, stabbed, bombed (im not loony) so that the last feeling im feeling before i die is pain. god that sounded so sadistic. i just want to feel really human in my last seconds. and whats more human then pain? acutally i dont want to get stabbed. thats jst scary. i dont want a death that will have me piss in my pants. and i dont want my blood to go everywhere. too messy. bahah imagine my gravestone : UYEN PHUONG HUA, Lord bless her she was bombed to death.
BHAHAHHAHAHAHA LOOOOOOL. its amusing. but then theres be nothing of my to bury :/ cuase id be in bits. and bonesss will get called to the scene. :D but then id be all over the place. ew. maybe if i get thrown off a cliff. but i dont want to drown. :S i hate drowning. it makes my nose feel funny. maybe shot then. but this is just if i die. not saying i want to die. just if i had to. i dont want to get cancer or old or anything. thats too scaryy. lying in hosiptal connected to thousands of needles shoving shit in your system. kyahhhh i have to get a blood test soon. im scared shitless. itll probably be what if feels like to have a vampire eating you. itd be so good to be a vamp, eternal youth. then ill turn everyoen around me too then eveyrone can stay as they are. omg imagine a really old person got turned. theyd be old foreverrr. god that would kill.

and god ive been writing for an hour. i should have written this in my personal diary instead but who gives a fuck. The underlying message is that a hot guy died and i hate myself.
but hey, im just gonna knock it all off as PMS. yeah baby~~~

ps. im sorry for using god's name so much. i jstu realised haha. ill be back to delete this post sometime laterr when i can be fked. god i should stop talking to myself ==

monkey magic

Bahahahah just finished work an hr or so ago. It was sooo busy with only two people. And there was this really agressive dude that came in. he wasnt even a customer, just wanted a cash out. which we couldnt do so he went all RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. and i didnt know what to do so i just ignored him. which made him go all apesht. i think he was high on speed or something cause he was all shaky and his eyes twitched - but that might have been because he was angry. or both.

Hold Your Breathe - Keri Hilson & timberland is a good song. lol. Turn it Up - TOP isnt T_T. autotuned much? and he says monkey magic funny. it sounds like MOOOOOONKY MAAAAAJIIIIC. But he is smoooking in his MV *drool. Artists need to get over digitilising their voices. im getting sick of skipping to the next song and the voice sounds the same. like a computerr singinggggg.

I cantttt wait for We Fell In Love 2!!! <3>

CUTE

my baby baby baby boooooooooooones

Just woke up and the computer was open :D
Had a Bones marathon last night, by my lonely self. Booth is so hot *drool. God i wanna work with a Booth when I'm older. ILL BE SO MOTIVATED TO WORKKK. His name should be Edward though. Booth is kind of a weird name. telephone booth? baahhahah. But yes Edward. And he has to have nice hair, tall, nice suit (guys in suits *drool), nice smile, nice face, very nice JAWWW, nice eyes, nice everythinggggg. And then someone will die and we'll be like "OMG" then teh case will somehow be solved and then we'll go have chinese takeout. omgg if i could have any job in the Jeffersonian, i wanna be Booth(who isnt part of the jeffersonian ==). But i dont want to see the dead body or run around after bad guys or interrogate them though. cbfff man. i just want to have a mystery in my hands !! muahahahaha! and let it sit there. AND ARREST PEOPLE. USE MY GUNNN. muahahah I wanna be a detective. And my first case would be...maybe a ninja gets murdered. by another ninja. So my hot sexy partner runs after the ninja then i shoot him with my gun. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and so ends another pointless post :)
back to sleep - i dreamt about a dead body last night.

teddy bears, ducks and edward

Just finished dinnnner~
Had tutor today DRAINNNNNNERRRRRR. My tutor somehow thinks its beneficial for me to do all the mhs sacs. i say puhhhlease~!

I played the funnest game before. SCOOPSSSSS. KYAHHHHH ITS SO CUTEEEEEE!!!

Oh and Australia's out of the World Cup :(. We had it coming anyways I guess
K.Rudd stepped down :( HE WAS LIKE AUSTRALIA'S TEDDY BEAR. But nooooo, apparently thats not good enough. Gillard looks like a duck! Australia's duck, big whoop. T_T But I like ducks, I kicked one at retreat! Inspired by Welcome To The Underworld. Where the girl kicked a duck...then the duck came and snapped at her so she kicked it again and a fat boy nearby who saw started crying. Then the oh-so-hot boyfriend bagged her, like he always does X]. ehehehehe yeah..ducks. We had a pet duck once! Like...two months ago. Then it disappeared. Scenario 1: The neighbour's cat ate it. Scenario 2: My dad ate it. Im thinking its the latter. :S But I'd pick teddy bears over ducks any day.

Of course Edward wins all.
Which reminds me, playing Japanese celebrity heads today, I WAS DANIEL RADCLIFFE WTHHHHHHH. HARRY POTTTTTTY??? He is like..Edward's nemesis. *glare. Edward <3

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bahahahahahahaha.... this feels awkward, like im talking to myself LOL.
i guess i treat this like a diary?
well
currently: minesweeping :D, reading a fanfic > in a heartbeat (sad TT_TT), music: walk away - varsity, i have my methods book open but thats about as far as it goes. SAC tmr :(

and this concludes my first post :D ciao!