uni starts again tomorrow. im gonna skip the whole speech about how this semester will be different and that ill work so hard and do the very best i can.
i just wanted to reflect ("reflect") on this past holiday. i dunno. ive kind of learnt a lot. and ive realised a lot. and im happy to say that i have friends who will be with me through thick and thin. and that i have friends who make me happy. genuine happy. not so-so, but really happy. (repeat after me: REAL. HAPPY.)
i also had friends i had a lot of care and respect for. and ive learnt that i dont let go of shit really easily. it stays there and it either hurts me or angers me. ive never really had a fallout before, but i suck at taking care of myself. i dont think i make sense right now. some people i held close to me just really hurt my feelings this holidays. and i dont realy know how to handle it. the only way i know how is to eliminate the source. LOL. i sound like im on some mission. well, ABORT MISSION. i dunno lol. i wish i had a butler in my head to guide me through all my emotions. do i get emotional?
i feel like a lot of people are taking me for granted. my cajoling mood makes it easy for people to laugh AT me, or assume that i have a lot of patience and forgiveness. or that i will accept a lot of shit. is that true? lol, which is why im gonna distance myself from some people who make me feel dismissed, misunderstood or disregarded. im not saying im a queen and a goddess deserving of all your attention, but im not an inferior nobody either.
listening to taylor swift does this to me. LOL it makes me sob about myself. lame.
to conclude, i want to ramble about osmethign that makes me happy instead. i reread the vampire acadamy series this week. now before you scoff and go 'omg not another vampire novel someone shut this girl up', i can assure you, its not your typical vampire novel. like, vampires arent even the WOW factor of the story, and it certainly is an original plotline. and the girl does not fall in love iwth a vampire (technically speaking). lol. its just a society where vampires exist :) trusst me.
i stepped into this world with a SUPER CYNICAL view of the series, trust me. i was like PSH another vagmpire novel trying to follow twilights success, but its mindblowing story changed my mind pretty fast :). trusst me?
the genre is not romance, its more..romance. LOL jks, its i dont even know. its a whole new thing. its a fantasy world with a reality. its like, its AWESOME. ive written a proper review for this series in my bloig somehwere last year.
lol sorry im typing and typoing all over today. im kind of in a rush cause i need to pee and yeah i just wanna finish this off.
rose :)
uni tmr oh no :( i actually dont mind uni cuas i just sit there and write then go next class etc. i just really hate getting up early. like, i. hate. it. yes i know, im blessed to have education and a bed to sleep on etc, but getting up early is such an uncomfortable feeling :(
you know what motivates me to get up though? if im late. once i was an hour late to work and when i realised, mannn i had never been more eager to rock up to work lol. bolted right out of my bed. beds are warm. why cant our beds just like..float to uni then set us down, and then a microchip gets inserted into our heads with all of todays content and then our bed transports us back home. :) is that a bit too outside the box?
i was meant to conclude with vampire acadamy. now i COULD cut and psate that paragraph down here, bt ceebs. hahaha
i want to finish this post off with a bang. i dont know what would make a good bang.
dakara, therefore
BANG.
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