honesty hour

this new layout is creeping me out LOL but looks nice
this post is all on opinions. mine. with every opinion you give comes the increased likelihood of hypocrisy, but if you just keep things honest, you should be fine.
this is what ive been thinking from what ive seen around me (no offence if it clashes with any of you):

having no expectations to avoid disappointment is a load of bullshit you shouldnt be thinking. expectations is what gives you standards, people. it makes you not some pushover who accepts shit from everyone and everything. disappointment is a sure symptom that youre standing for something.

bitches who bitch about people need to shut it with the bitching about bitches bitching. which makes all of us. if you bitch about me for example, why cant i bitch about you?

laughter is one of the most important things in life for me. bring laughter into my life and i will probably treasure you as a dear friend till i die. or until i forget you did.

as stupid as it sounds, i dont understand how people cannot finish hunger games (the first book, not the whole series) in one sitting. DOES THE SUSPENSE NOT PULL YOU IN AND DEMAND ALL OF YOUR TIME UNTIL YOU FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENS?? Katniss' life is at stake here

i have a friend whos opinion i always rebutted and constantly disagreed with. my head was like fuck you youre wrong! i still think that way, but ive realised that my opinion is about as valid as yours. im in no place to convert you to my mindframe. you cant either.

i think i feel like shit.

cocky people annoy everyone but i respect them- not in a 'holy shit let me kiss your shoes' kind of way. not saying i love cockiness, but i think its better than being insecure, timid and weak. id have more respect for someone who places a far too high value on themselves than someone who doesnt value them self enough. having said that, id much rather not bfflise with an overwhelming and cocky attitude. im just saying its not such a horrible attribute. serve in moderation and viola~ youve got confidence.

make up is very hard to lay off once you start. like omggggg. i had placement and i wanted to look presentable. what did i do? some mascara and concealer (cause my eyebags are too sexy for the public). its a small start (hopefully itll stay small too) but i cant lay off it. since placement, ive been all up in the mascara + concealer department. like ive been wearing it everyday to uni when i used to feel it was soooo unnecessary! sad part is i dont feel the need to stop. i sound like im talking about drugs. haha drugs for my face. quite true. i used to think make up was an insecurity sort of thing. its the common perception. but no, its not. well at least for me its not. its more like a whole..'if just a small touch up here and there would make me look better, why not do it?' did that sound insecure of me? LOOOL

i would rather regret then question the 'whatifs'. the what-ifs keep your mind reeling for ages, regret just makes me cringe in embarrassment or on a really bad day 'AIKRGHKAJERHG :(' then im so over it. but surely if i feel this way, i should be driving all my whatifs to reality. but no, my pride trumps all that. since i brought my pride into this, i must be talking about people.

i judge books and people by the front cover. i think everyone does. you can say you dont or 'try not to' but seriously, how are you trying? "OH I DONT NOTICE THAT MISSING FRONT TOOTH AT ALL.'. youre judging with every time you say you dont judge. youre judging by pointing out that there is judgement to be made. judgement is human nature. there is nothing wrong with it. pepole just prefer to hear 'so pretty' to 'so ugly'. i believe people reach a stage of indifference however, where their judgement of a cover doesnt then influence their behavior so badly. and i do believe i look past front covers too, like i do see it, and look at it and all, but its not what i base my opinion on..? not with everyone though.

i like the carrots i draw. theyre so pretty.

its been an hour. i thought id hammer out a lot more. this is like, my first time doing freestream writing in like two years ahaha. is that even what its called? feels quite good actually, you should give it a try. and i probably sound really opinionated and everything but hey, this was dedicated to what i think. i think a lot of things, but more often then not, i keep it to myself. unless its on something meager like hunger games, rob pat (urgh), tram rides or the world's ugliest dog. or people :O. or myself :P.

i hope ive avoided sounding like a hypocrite.

and random fact, i name my blogs after ive written it :D cause most of the time i have no fucking idea why im blogging.
and random opinion, i dont think you care.


feels ok to be blogging once in a while about random shit. goodnight to you all! *curtsy