probably worth a read?

Theres this new drug out and its called TOUGHEN THE FUCK UP. and you  basically apply this to the area of your brain and your widdle, poor heart whenever you feel like being a grouch and fucking everyone over. use in moderation. because god forbid you become too emotionally stable.
some lifestyle changes i would recommend include: counting your blessings, looking at the bigger picture, and leaving me the fuck alone if you find my company and assistance has been useless after two weeks.

i udnerstand that we all go through hard times- its life, but can i help it if i dont enjoy being miserable all day everyday? im human, i have emotions that are undesirable. i see youre going through a rough patch, but your life is not my life. and i do care, just not enough to prioritise you forevs and evs. i do want my friends to be happy, but im not going to go on a mission i know im going to fail. not a massive-leap-of-faith kinda girl.

and im sorry i cant be your teddy to have and to hold. im a stellar service, utilise it. (that was a joke, laugh or else ill look like a retarded snob)


and im also sorry if youre reading this and thinking im bitching about you, cuase unless ive expressed it myself to you personally, no its not you. what am i saying, ==, most of my readers are canadian strangers. and before that sounds racist or anything, most of my readers really are canadians. and chances are, theyre not actually readers but accidental stumblers. :) by all means, keep on stumblin' over this paragraph and out of my blog.

annnd also! dear beloved closest friends of mine (you know who you are), im always here for you. really. because i genuinely from the bottom of my heart want you to achieve all that you want, and have all that you need and i wish you a lifetime of happiness and success. and with that feeling, ill want to make you happy, whether it be being your shoulder to cry on, or someone you can share yourself with. ew that sounded really bad. but ill leave it up tehre anyway. cuse you know i dont mean it in any bad way. and if you read it that way, youve got a dirty mind. and before you say anything.. NO im not dirty for seeing it that way becuase i dont see it that way, im just assessing all the possible interpretations of my words :). and if you cant really see anything bad or dirty in it at all, then YEAH. EXACTLY MY POINT. BOOM SHAKALAKA.

and btw, random but, the phrase 'from the bottom of my heart' is so weird! i know i just used it before but its so weird! ever since i was a kid with issues (that was a joke, laugh or else ill look like i was a kid with issues) i always thought that the bottom of my heart would be a very lonely place. cause its the smallest part and its like..its the bottom. like the bottom of a dark ocean. down there, creatures need like super high tech skills to survive. so like, yeah. i imagine it to be very gloomy and yeah. like a corner of the room. so yeah. i feel bad for all the words and emotions that get put into the bottom of people's hearts. like puhhhhlease biyatch, THOSE POOR THINGS DO NOT BELONG THERE. they belong to the most active, crucial points of the heart. THE 4 CHAMBER OF SECRETSS. I LOVE YOU FROM THE PULMONARY VEIN TO THE AORTIC ARCH. that would be my entire heart. shit just got serious. (and NO, if i got my heart anatomy wrong, dont correct me)