random thought train

theres a lot of poverty in this world. theres also a lot of tragedy, sadness and loss. death is inevitable. if you take away all this serious shit, life is still unsatisfactory.
we all need something that we dont have. we all want something that we dont need.
when have you felt content for an extended period of time?
essentially, my proposition is, what if happiness is just a luxurious abnormality of life? what if life isnt meant to be happy, and we're all chasing something unattainable until we die.
i dont believe the average person would be happy. if emotions were tangible, and you were to place htem all in a jar, i doubt youd see a lot of happy. a lot of us, (or at least i do) set happiness as a benchmark for the standard emotion. we expect to be happy, if we're sad we think somethings wrong. if we think lifes fucked up, we call ourselves depressed.
but what if we're just asking for too much? what if life is meant to be as dull and as pointless as a lot of people find it is. happiness isnt meant for all. so maybe we should stop trying to be happy. and just live. and stop trying to define and endorse happiness. and maybe just settle for alive, healthy and content.

half of me feels like i just wrote a passage stating the obvious. and the other half of me feels like im being emo. but im srsly not emo LOL. i was just curious from a post on tumblr i saw. it was a simple 'did you know' that said there was a scientist who wrote a paper about how happiness should be classified as a psychiatric disease. couldnt find the article. but it raises a fair point doesnt it? true happiness is quite rare so why do we set happy as the norm? like maybe we're all meant to feel like shit. and those fleeting moments of happiness we feel, we spend our entire life trying to feel again. and we subconsciously do so by getting money to indulge ourselves, falling in love and playing on other people's insecurities.

but then again, if we dont try to find happiness, what becomes of us?

i personally hate writing blogs like these. where i tlak like im some pothead philosopher without a degree but i started typing and everything just vame out LOL. i generally dont do this whole reflective shit anyway but when i do i always want to store it somewhere. cause its not often i get down and dirty with THE MEANING OF LIFE dundundun!! anyways,   i promise ill keep them scarce.

until next time :)