i hate that peoples defence for rudd throwing a tantrum and regaining prime minister power is that 'its okay, gillard did the exact thing to him'. like mate, i find that such an unintelligent argument. try living with the world blind. i think rudd is a suitable prime minister, but i find gillard up to par too. they both essentially have the same goals; bag the shit out of abbott, improve education and health, talk and talk and talk about boat people. meet the alp. but then you look at tony abott and its just criiiinge LOL. 

i hate it when people let their insecurities get the better of them. i have sooo many insecurities its not even funny. theres so much i hate about myself. but to let it control you is such a killjoy becuase you spend much of your life trying to validate yourself with your peers and spend all this time talking baout yourself in an attempt to create an envy-worthy self. because envious is what you essentially are. i find that so annoying. i dont like it when poeple compare themselves to their friends as a measure of inferiority or superiority. 

and im competitive. so you start doing that and ill defend my own worth. but stop. youre not angelina jolie. save it for the 13 year olds. 

i hate how bad of a friend ive been lately. ive been taking my mouth to town with one of my friends and i aint stopping. clingyness madly annoys me, but i still care. youre probably gonna read this eventually and complain to me so ill just tell you now no im not talking about you, its someone else *cough ahem. 

i was late to both my friends' 21st yesterday and not just that, but my speech was halfassed, uneditted and unemotional on my fucken phone haha. sorry. and i put such a poor effort into maintaining contact with friends. if i were to hold a party, i would probably only have my immediate friends rock up cause the other ones wont remember who the shit i am. 'youre that twilight chick' ive heard that way too many times. i hate that it doesnt really phase me atm.

i hate poor hospital service. i got sent a letter last week saying ive been referred to the epilepsy specialist clinic and to call them to book an appointment. so like..is that what i have? can you clarify? can we do this face to face?  and im pretty sure youre wrong since hte last time we talked you were all 'i have no idea'. 

i hate how nothing makes me happy. im not sad or anything, just not happy. i shouldnt blog while im pmsing lol. 

niagra falls. LOLOLOL.