longgggg post in regards to nothing

heyyyyyy
im listening to lalala by big bang atm. feeling the old school days agaaaain. and now im listening to number 1. i used to love number 1. now it feels different.
back in high shcool it was all ooooo sounds so cool omg. now its just like ohhh yeah.. okay.
things used to be so chill. now we're adults with more knowledge of how this device called life works. so we can recognise unhappiness and what itll take to undo that. we need more. we are too busy with people we have no time to be busy with ourselves. yes im aware that i dont make sense.

i just went to my very first blog here and turned on the music i said i was listening to in that post. omg the nostalgia. (walk away- varsity) or maybe cause im listening to a sad song. omg someone just hire me for a kdrama already.

i remember being a kid and pulling an allnighter because i had a glow in the dark lantern and i wanted to make sure it didnt go out in the night.

i remember eating soap bubbles to protect them from draining down the sink.
i remember breaking my chin. (i actually visisted that place a few years back and still saw that blood stain there)

i remember poisonberries, dancing grass, D+. you know what, you couldnt even tell PMS apart when youw ere in high school. cause regardless your emotions were always fluctuating all over the place cause we were all over the place lol. fun times.

the first time the group had a 'boy problem'. i remember all those friendship dramas omg. i rememebr crying my arse off becuase one of my close friends thought i didnt like her. and the class prayed for us during homeroom LMAO. and the teacher telling us to write letters to explain our emotions. and alienating people. having group 2minute noodle days. and other unhealthy traditions

grafittiing our school diaries and trying to hide it from the teacher.

our main issue was SACS, homework, teachers, what formal dress to wear, planning birthdays 'how much you pitching in?', can uyen stfu about twilight, and just being very hyper with each other.

it kind of feels like all that isnt real anymore. its just classified as 'immaturity'.

now its so grown up. its about internship, jobs, alcohol, money, which friends to keep and which to not bother with. there aint no boy problems anymore theres man problems. no girl dramas, but quarter life crisesess. everything amplified. and its not ok to be a child.

and none of those 'come to my birthday lunch!' texts! but 'clubbing tonight?' - which im obviously not

ok songs over. im actually sooo bored. i cant be bothered cathcing up on my shows. but i really ship donna and harvey so i think ill just open up torrents and get the downloads going.
my laptop is also slowly deteriorating. so sad!! i constantly have it plugged onto the battery charger like an IV drip now. i have no idea hwre hte actual battery is cuase i took it out to look at it and yeah. me and technology? nono.
my samsung note has also been acting up. the note had already been performing poorly in terms of battery life so to see that battery be such a hindrance in terms of recharge time is an extra pain in the a.

and i litereally have nothing to wear so ive been shopping which isnt something someone with no money should do. i also havent been able to get my hair cut, unless the hairdresser wants to do it prohairbono.
i have to buy some 'work smart' shit for placement coming soon too. im actually quite excited. i really want to get a taste of hospital and get into the essence of patient care. at the same time im very scared. i dont have a lot of faith in my abilities so i fear my knowledge will displease them.
everytime i have placement, i never let my preceptor know whats on witht he placemnt booklet even if there are some parts that require their interaction. cause pharmacy is quite busy and like, i dont wish to inconvenience them. i know theyre probably cool with it, but maybe cuase i wouldnt like doing that stuff when i graduate so i natrually think pharmacists out there may have that mindset too.
why am i constantly talking about pharmacy. even when we're all out its pharmacy pharmacy pharmcy ohhhh caverject LOL.
i feel like painting.
my love for brands has worn off. lol. i went through a I WANT THE LV I WANT THE PRADA. but nah. after i touched the prada wallet i kind of deflated back to my normal self. i dunno. it was amazing and everything. but not amazing enough. i wasnt wowed like i was with my tote. i just need the tiff and co coin purse and im done. seriously done. being in debt does that to you. now i just want a pretty scarf. and maybe more gloves. i bought gloves today. they look so cute i want more. im so bored waiting for my downloads to downlaod :( not an episode done yet. maybe ill write a prada tote bag review. i loved reading them before i bought the bag. now that ive experienced it, meh lol. THE ISSUE OF MATERIAL RIGHT THERE.