bag appetite

hi blog.
are you ready for some trivial talk to fill up some of my time?
i used to think the Prada saffiano lux double zip tote (BN1786) was my holy grail. who knew there can be 2, 3 or 20 holy grails? hahaha
i am itching to own something in the color cameo from their range of saffiano. im not really one for seasonal colors, especially because i am constantly broke. so id rather a muted bag of classic style so i can be more versatile with it.
but prada doesnt have any other style i want. i wouldnt mind buying the same bag in the cameo. i went through a phase where i wanted it with the strap, but that was more for functionality. i dont think the bag suits a strap style. its a handheld - it looks it, it feels it. Cameo is just so pretty. and i dont want it as a wallet becuase i would trash it like right away. and theres something just so enjoyable about a big piece of beautiful leather that smells great. so big bag. ONE DAY. maaybe by then prada will have a style i will fall in love with like i did with the double zip. i dont care if its a common style/color or too many fakes blah blah blah, im not buying it to please society, i am buying it because i enjoy it and it makes me happy. to each their own.

i also want the chanel classic flap. in caviar so that it doesnt hurt to trash it. in some variant of a beige/nude color. with silver hardware. Let me explain. the bag itself, im not the greatest fan of it. i mean, i doubt i can fit my daily necessities into that bag. its so small and rectangular, and the jumbo is too big for me to wear. i feel it looks like a giant quilted pillow.  but it is a bag of history. and there is such an enchanting story that comes with it, i have obsessively been reading everything i can about coco chanel. a lot of controversy surrounds her due to her liaison with a nazi, and people consequently labelling her as a sympathizer. and she does sound like a manipulative bitch, put frankly. but it is undeniable the great legacy she built for herself, and the hard work she put into her goals and her visions. I respect it. she seems like such an enigma, she kept a lot of her internal thoughts to herself and put her strongest foot forward. she started with nothing, and ended with an empire, built with her innovative and creative mind. and her empire is still alive today.
and i find it so funny how all the men around her life were enamoured by her and gave her everything they think she wanted. and she let them, for a while. i guess a poor girl needs money if shes gonna randomly open a boutique. but she thrived in her profession and paid that back. she stood for herself, and gave herself to no one. 'There is only one Chanel' as she once said. Well i want that bag. ONE DAY.
Karl lagerfeld revamped the bag by threading leather through the gold chains and adding the CC clasp, but he did do a reissue a while back for an anniversary where he remade them as Chanel had them, with just gold chains and her mademoiselle lock, but i prefer Lagerfeld's version.
i also found it pretty cool how becuase she was never faithful to her lover, she designed a secret compartment in her bag to store her love letters. id defs use it to store my billion love letters from maccas.
actually maybe i will get it in black, cause theres a story behind the color choices chanel made as well. oh but the beige is nice :(  maybe both.
but yeah, chanel went through a lot, and i am amazed with what she has managed to do in one lifetime. there should be a chanel museum, is there? a lot of people say she was selfish or a complete nasty person, but i think theres many angles to look at a person, and you can never capture the whole picture. i see a lot of strength and resilience in her. its also not my place to say, but i reckon some of the issues with abandonment and strict upbringing she had in her younger years influenced the person she became. so i dont hold it against her. a lot of people swear never to touch chanel because she was a nazi lover and was all in all a bad person lol but i would love to carry one of her bags. i also love leather. so who can say no right?

i also wanted the LV speedy. cuase its cute and circular. but that was it. so i dont think i should invest in it LOL.