my passing thoughts this week

i recently caught up with a friend who recently came down from her gold coast. i was very pleasantly surprised by how easily we got on, as if we had just hung out the day before, despite having not talked to her for a year. i was also pleasantly surprised by how self contented i felt seeing her glow with her own life and happiness. its a weird feeling, being deeply happy for something that has nothing to do with you. like when the couple you ship finally get together on the big screen. or when a disabled man takes his first step in years.
(my friend is neither big screen nor disabled) i wish i could live everyday being this happy for people around me. but that would probably warrant me a punch in the face for being too soppy. and who wants to live off other people's lives?

but anyway, we, I dropped by the hairhouse warehouse to pick a dye for my hair (yes im still planning to do it). i picked up a very valuable (imo) lesson about hair dying.
for virgin black hair like myself, i can avoid harmful bleaching and dry tangly hair by getting it right the very first time. hair dye comes in 'levels'. you have level 5 i think? which is the lightest. and then theres like level 9 which is dark. and what happens is when you dye your hair like say, level 6 for the first time. that means from there on in, you can chuck on any colour of a level high like 7 or 8, without having to use bleach. if you start off dying your hair at 9 though, to dye it a level 7 or 8, you have to bleach. and you have to bleach the number of times you've redyed your hair to take it off strip by strip.
for me, in order to not have to bleach if i needed to change colour, she told me to start my hair off by dying it  7.1 (lol the levels come in decimal points too so theres heaps of colours lol). 7.1 is ash blonde. i was mortified LOL becuase no i will not go blonde. but she told me that when you first start, always go a few shades lighter than you intend on asian hair becuase the black pigment in your hair will bring the ash blonde to a dark coffee brown. i dont know why i keep saying coffee brown, its not even a hair colour.
SO HERE'S MY PLAN! im gonna dye my hair blonde and slowly work my way down the colour wheel until finally i hit 9. which is VIOLET! itll be like, working my way towards a goal i intended to achieve this summer. theres no 'few shades' lighter that will bring my hair to purple. so ill just have to do a straight bleach and dye after ive gone through 50 shades of brown. but if i like my coffee brown, maybe ill keep it at that.
she also said to just redye the regrowth not hte whole head becuase it will be a different colour becuase you've got the pigments from the previous dye in it too so the colour will be different to the regrowth bit so youll look brown and blue everywhere. LOL i think the girl was 50 shades brown too becuase she was pointing to different areas of her hair explaining the different shades of brown ==
mm a whole two paragraphs about my hair. dead cells really get me going.


today at work, i had a box of meloxicam thrown at me. to say the least, i was very hurt!
me: so that's $17.40 *generic grin*
her: MOBIC! MOBIC! *chucks melox at my chest*
me: i understand. the organisation that subsidises your drug costs only fund for generic prices. it will help you just the same, just an Australian brand.
her: MOBIC! MOBIC! MOBIC MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBIC MOOOOOOFJAKLEWJGALWGMOBICAKERGJERLKAJHGERLKGJREALGRJAEG
me: yes, what im saying is-
her: MOOOOBICVLIAJERGRKLEJMOBICMOBICMOBICCCMOBICMONBICMONICKMNONOOOOOOOONNNNOOOOOOONONONONONONONONOONONONONONO
me: okay be reasonable. let me explai-
her: MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBIC
me: LISTEN TO ME. WE CANNOT ACCEPT THIS RECEIPT FROM ___ IF YOU TAKE MOBIC
her: MOOOBICMOBICMOBBBBIC
she could not be calmed, and her friend started taking out her own meloxicam and joined in too. it was a riot right in front of me. as to not frighten the other customers, we got them their mobics. which was when a second riot ensued because they had to pay.
but all good. she ended up saying i was a really sweet girl before going. maybe cause im the first one who hasnt slapped her in the face.
im kidding.
but seriously, i was annoyed. i wasnt even the one that handled her scripts. even then, she was under a fund thing where all her meds are paid for provided theyre of the cheapest price.
for the rest of the shift i was in a foul mood. maybe because i got my d+ straight after that. or because it kind of made me realise that 80% of the customers i serve know english as a second or third language. ive never realised before but communication has always been difficult every shift becuase they cannot speak english. ive been accepting of it, i mean its hardly crossed my mind until today when i could not get a word down. Of the remaining 20%, 5% of those dont know english at all. ==. days like today, i realise how easy it is to just look confused and say 'i dont understand' and then they will leave and go elsewhere. and i wont be faced with countless hours trying to understand every sentence strung by broken english. but of course i dont. ive communicated via google translator with chinese speakers, spoken over the phone to sons of the illiterate, attempted sign language with the deaf, re-enacted symptoms with the fobs and its been years since someones walked off unhappy with my service (that theyve alerted me of). which im content with.
when i first started as a shop girl, i was so horrible i still wonder why they didnt just fire me omg. get rid of the girl! i gave them the wrong products, could hardly speak loudly enough to be heard and was too overjoyed by the sound of products scanning. i think i also had like some social anxiety disorder of sorts becuase the thought of talking to customers really frightened me. id be so nervous! if i saw a customer by a counter id try to look extra busy so that someone else will serve them. so many customers complained (i wanted a hand cream not a foot balm!), i was not sociable to my work mates at all and i basically kept to myself the best i could. but as i got used to it, my voice got louder till work didnt make me nervous anymore, just really tired LOL. that was year 10.

i also got my blood test results back. nothings changed exceeeppttttt my cholesterol is way too high now. my good cholesterol levels are fine but my bad cholesterol levels are shocking. i wanst there to see my doctors face, but my mum filled me in. LOL i am literally a fat girl on the inside! its not that big a leap to get from high cholesterol to fat girl right? there was a joke in there somewhere witht he big leap thing. so anth, i am a fatass! i need to change what i eat. not necessarily how much i eat because im not gaining like a balloon, but damn i loveed eating my jam donuts on saturdays :(. i had some pizza today too, is that cholesterol inducing? i dont even know what foods have cholesterol. avacado? fried oily foods right? so basically, anything that tastes good. LOL apparently im too young to be at that level and i need to get healthy! LOL itd be pretty cool if i keep going up until i have to take meds that ill be learning about. ill totally ace it on exams! and then ill get fit again and be healthy, otherwise not good!

Christmas is near! SANTAAAAA CLAUS IS COMIN' TA TOWN MATE. GET YA ESKYS READY AND SLIP SLOP SLAP. i was watching this video on yogscast (i completely adore yogscast) and there's a member there whose parents send her 25 gifts in a big box each december to kickstart advent. each day, you just pick a random present in the box and unwrap it!! how cool is that! imagine doing that for a little sister, boyfriend, husband, friend, BONNIE. they dont even have to be massive gifts, save that for christmas. just small presents everyday, as opposed to your boring chocolate and cracker witht he generic advent calenders. REWIND BACK TIME AND LET ME DO TAHT TO SOMEONE. ill force you all. feel my wrath through the spirit of giving. if its someone i dont like ill just buy 25 twilight merchandises. ill be in the spirit of giving by financially supporting twilight franchise. and its not like ive given that person crappy presents either, ive given them engouh to create their own twilight shrine! it will strengthen and change our friendship bond.

and my darling blog, i have decided that it is timeto make you less accessible to the scary wide world.