Hello my darling. Blogging from my phone so brace yourself! For proper punctuation and spelling!
It's been over two hours and my brain has analysed every grain in the sea. It's now attempting to turn every rock and inspect every sea creature in my cerebral fluid. Kind of takes me back to year 12 when I took night time cold/flu tablets to fall asleep. When I'm not chatting and dramaing at 4 that is. Winkk ahh Bad memories thank god that's over :*)
But it's not even 1 so I'm not fussed. You just know though, when tonight's gonna be a tough night to fall asleep and when it'll be easy. So it's easier to just admit defeat and use the time productively rather than force sleep upon yourself. Yeh?
You know what I sometimes wonder. In this giant giant giant giant...giant giant universe, there has got to be more planets that are inhabited true? What I'm really curious about is how far they've advanced compared to us. What if they've already invented flying cars and we're slow as fuck on the whole evolution thing? What if the other extraterrestrials are really good neighbours and because theyve invented effective space travel, visit each other while we are the outliers, the 'losers'? :( what if while we're debating about Pluto, they're having amazing gravity defying space tea parties? While we're watching Harlem Shake videos.
And what if I'm lying here thinking about this and somewhere, someone is thinking the exact same thing? :D that would be pretty coolio.

I've been talking to a friend about my woes about pharmacy, and as convinced as he is about me just having a bad week, I still hold my view.
I just don't understand where I can channel passion into my career-to-be. Removing workmates and environments aside, pharmacy is dispensing a medication and giving it to the name enlisted. Explaining it to them, and making sure they take it correctly. I'm just really confused because if someone was passionate about this, wouldn't they then have the drive to go for medicine instead? Where you can help these people TO THE MAXXXXXXX. I don't even want to get to the administrative side. The teaching side I can understand though. Maybe ill teach pharmacy when I build up patience and any desire to teach at all lol. But other than that, it's literally just dispensing. How can I be passionate about that. How do I treat a script like its my love child? Maybe ill go into research? But I really don't believe I can aid in any way.
I want it to bring a smile to my face, or at least bring a smile to someone else's face. Maybe ill be a pharmacist in a poverty stricken area.
I still have time :)
BUT WHY DIDN'T I DO SOMETHING FHAT SURROUNDS ME WITH BEAUTY AND JOY?!!! It doesn't even seem right anymore to take medication. Like sometimes it's like, if you were to die without these medications in you, Is that normal? Should we let life run its cycle? Are we to interfere and unnaturally alter our body's capabilities?