a really not deep, not soul searching, not spiritual reflection

whats up ma homie? boom shakalaka

im kind of sad cause tonight kind of fell through so im stuck home with candy saga and shit music :(
and thinking about myself. in my room. with my hair over my face, sitting on a broom. inside a closet with one glow worm. on top of a majestic mountain. Narnia is my minion. ill stop before i get carried away. (by a magic carpet. across Utopia. come flyyyyy with me~)

but i was really thinking about myself. (as i always do lol jks) its always bad to think about your flaws. because you cant really change the fact that you're imperfect. so you get your knickers in a knot because you cant change who you are and you cant ignore your flaws once you pick it out of your bundle of adjectives. the last time i did in 20111 (lol as if this is some systematic process), I winded up really hating myself. which brings me to a tangent. that time, a friend somehow picked up on it and was soooooo supportive and sweet that i grew to love myself too much LOL. but then i winded up hating myself again because i found out later on that he was going through a shitstorm while i was just woeing about how i have flaws. its gonna be one of those things i will remember till i die.
but ive done another stocktake. must be a jolly darn good stocktake becuase i cant remember shit.

the main thing i picked out though was that i need to really listen when people talk!! i always (well not always) do this thing where if someone's saying something i have no passionate interest in, i just zone out and just ask the simple 'what, where, who, why' questions. theyre so general and so they can be applied to almost any situation lol. most of the time im not caught, but mann at work..ive tuned out so much that my collegue calls me blondie. im not dumb, im just disinterested. i guess listening starts with respect. its not that im disrespectful to others or anything, id just rather talk with people of the same interests or argue with the people of polar opposites. the in-betweens all get really hazy and become one verbal mass of...
like there were these two people talking about port melbourne beach, surfing and different hiking areas etc. and they were FULL going at it. well one was, the other was asking polite questions like 'oh sounds fun, maybe ill try it one day...' its like OMGGG *rips hair out* dont encourage him.
LOL its kind of funny though. esp when you ask the same shit the following week. i find it most effective to just deny ever asking that question until they give up on you and rehash.
or when you have no recollection when they go 'remember what i was saying about xxxxx?'. like shit shit shit 'LMFAOO YES HAHHAHA, what happened again?'
im suprisingly keen to hear everything from customers at work though. and i remember it and can continue the conversation the following week. maybe because when ive got the uniform on, im not Uyen Hua ceeeeeeeeebs, i'm Uyen Hua at your service.

but thats all im gonna say. never reflect too much! which is funny cause just the other week i was bagging the hsit out of philosophy and self help books. LOL i opened miranda kerr's Treasure Yourself book and my god, sorry but its so pathetic lol. i cant remember the exact words but she was all 'you can fix your outside all you want, but its not going to hcange the person you are inside'. Thank you gorgeous model who doesn't need to worry about her looks. Perhaps go back to the catwalk while i find 100 other books that say the same shit. she also had like a chapter on how to not be jealous. do i even need to get into that? let me search deep into my heart, and discover that oh my! i am a special, unique, treasured human being. :') oh you make me cry. lol okay i dont know wtf im saying anymore.
you can shut me up anytime you want blog. muahahha you cant.

im going to a cemetery tomorrow! im going to light up those incense and shove one on each grave :') plz dont haunt me.
footscray fest should be on too right? see ya there me hearties!