THE CRICKET

Crikey mate! haha not related to cricket but it sounds like cricket.
so my bffl vini took me and steve to the cricket last night. we are not fans of the sport so it was a whole new experience. i didnt really bother with photos because i think we all know what the cricket looks like right? its people on the field looking at a ball. one has a bat in his hand.
so you get in via a golden ticket with a barcode. they do bag checks too. i had some panamax in my bag which really excited the guy.
entering the mcg was like WOAH its so big! and we took seats at the front becuase i am a dingleberry and forgot to bring my glasses. the grass was really green, is it fake?
the players were all training on field still but i couldnt see much haha. they looked like little green munchkins bopping around.
there were scary mascots running around and pretty cheerleaders. like a realll match.
to commence the game, these fireworks came off and becuase i was at the front it scared the s.h.i.t out of me.
there were HEAPS of kids. some of them were really cute haha. i had an internal battle for about a minute about whether or not i could swear because they were EVERYWHERE. i decided to let loose anyway becuase im sure theyre used to it. what is sport without a little FUCK here and there? welcome to the 21st century. actually, tahts a massive improvement from gladiators slaughtering eachother.
it was fun watching the team i was supposed to support bat. esp when they hit a 4 becuase then fire came out everywhere which warmed me up (it was cold).
and hahahah everytime someone went out, theres this guy that comes out with the camera to capture every moment of glorious misery.
during breaktimes or whatever theres dance cam, kiss cam, air guitar cams etc. reminds me of america so bad lol. i wonder if someones been stupid enough to propose on cam here in australia tho lol.
and OMG there were thses high school cunts that throughout the WHOLE game kept nudging me and vini. we ignored it, but it got soo bad when steve went to pee. they called him 'the big guy' hahaha cause theyre all prepubescent fucks. when i turned around and asked them what they wanted, they were being all teasing and shit. like LOOK MOM IM SO COOL MESSING WITH GIRLS. but then they got all defensive and aggressive once they figured i was not amused. like omg did their parents even sign their permission slips for them to come here alone? i wanted to hit them so bad but my hits dont really do much damage so i figured i better not look pathetic. besides, itll dirty my hand.
our team lost (melbourne stars) haha. i didnt really get competitive during the match, i kind of lost interest. cricket is not my thing haha. but it was kind of cool, id probably go again if my friend wanted me to. i only really went because she LIVES for it so i wanted to see what the hype was all about. and so i can understand what she's saying half the time.

and yeah, thats what i got from the cricket. cool atmosphere. maxwell was a shit player so i dont like him. i liked the captain and luke wright. they seemed to hold the team.

the company of strangers

hey, im really drained from work. i can only imagine what internship will be like.
i read something that popped up on my newsfeed just now.
It is about a girl called kim pham who photobombed a group and ended up getting bashed for it. Her parents only recently made the hard decision to turn off her life support. my heart goes out to them. whenever i read these random stories of people passing away due to the forceful actions of others, it gets me fking depressed. to die due to the stupidity and poor education of others.. whats really sad about this particular case, aside from the fact that it was over such a small incident, is that there were lots of bystanders. and all they did was film the whole event. they filmed a girl dying. im not expecting them to go up and fight the gang by their lonesome, but would a call to the cops or ambulance hurt?
so yeah.
this isnt an isolated incident either. a customer got attacked today by a homeless man she donated to, and his cig burnt her cheek. no one helped her, but she got a small audience watching. ready to hashtag.
we are taking life for granted, unless it is our own or the life of someone we know. we are quick to 'RIP' and mourn the dead but slow to help the living. im not saying we should be thankful for life everyday and shit -aint nobody got time for that, but preserve the life of others and ourselves.
im just really sick of people. my dad helped a woman at a road accident and even that backfires and he ends up copping threats from her insurance.
over 200 elderly passed away in victoria with the heatwave recently. that is very very very sad too.

tbh ive been feeling like something is fundamentally fucked up in me for about a month now. some faultline running across my pudgy brain. i srsly thought there was, but i dont think there is. its just a massive mindfuck when ppl keep telling you youve changed as if its a bad thing, talking AT you, criticising you, patronising you. one line that keeps coming back at me is 'you are completely different to who you were this time last year'.
i shouldnt have to defend change, or justify it. people talk at me and preach as if i am wrong for behaving differently to how they would have. so what if i do something wrong, im not perfect. i dont even see that ive done anything wrong. from my perspective, ive done what i wanted to do.
we all have this image of what is ideal in our heads, but there is no 'right' way to live. there is no correct way to behave, a perfect combination of actions to reach a satisfying point in life. we all fumble and experience life differently and i respect that with the people i care about. sure, i may not condone what you do, but that does not mean i am not here to empathise and listen to you.
i dont need a solution when i have a problem, i think i am able to reach a resolution eventually, i just need understanding.
listen nonjudgementally. haha mental first aid 101. maybe ppl should apply that to the mentally healthy too.
like i am so done giving a fuck about myself. just say what i want to say and see how that goes.

URINE

my new years resolution was to drink 1.2L per day and buy mah bag. but the bag can wait, i can stress cc swipe it if by the 31st dec i sitll dont own it. but i will. i. will.
the 1.2L thing is kinda killing it. as if i didnt pee frequently enough already. im peeing all day everyday. haha! if this is what healthy feels like ill take a raincheck.
but peeing isnt so bad. this blog is not meant to be about peeing.
keeping count of how much water actually influences my other decisions. i shy away from coffee/tea because theyre diuretics. i wouldnt know how much water that would technically make me lose so i dont know how much extra to drink to compensate so i just dont drink it in general. hasssshtag ocd. alcohol makes you pee a tonne too, so au revoir. a girl can try.
it actually makes a difference tho. my lips arent so chapped anymore. i can tell becuase when i swipe my lip balm across, the application is smooth. like babies' ass. why is baby ass meant to be smoother than the rest of their body anyway? is it the urea from all the urine they keep cosy between those cheeks? can smooth ass factor be used to indicate infrequent nappy changes and therefore bad parenting? haha my kid would have the smoothest ass in the world. itll overflow to smooth back too. ew.

why arrows is a shit show

yeah thats right. spoilers.
so i had the absolute pleasure of watching arrows cause ive spent so long in captivity (sick). my firend said there was a character in there that reminded him of me so by my own vanity, i watched the first season.
i seriously dont know how much more of this i can take. so many flaws. ill list a few
1. character development sucks shit. We hardly get a chance to love these characters at all. they introduce us to oliver, who i guess gets his own backstory throughout the entire show but eveyrone else..theyre just props. his 'partner' diggel or whatever is hardly a partner. he's treated like a butler LOL. everything is just too plot driven and the characters lack so much depth that you dont care for them.
not to mention the lack of character growth and building. they all stay the same throughout all the episodes and theres no change. it gets to the point hwere you can predict everything becuase their characteristics are so stone set that theres no room for change.

2. the action sequences. like i get that he's super cool with his bow and arrow etc but its the same action EVERY single time. he shoots and the weapon falls from the enemy's hand then he goes YOU AHVE FAILED THE CITY then they get scared 'OH SHIT ITS THE HOODED CUNT' etc etc. ive basially summed up the show for you in one sentence. would it hurt to change it up a bit?
not to mention all the shooting. EVERYONE is so trigger happy. and such bad aim too. i thought cops were trained, i thought assassins were trained, i thought bulky, scary looking, thug gangsters were trained. and come onnnnn, like 60 shots get fired and not one hits target? loll. whats the point in owning a gun? only oliver seems to be able to shoot anyone. so not much suspense or good action during those scenes. just PEW PEW PEW 'AHH THE HOODED CUNT' 'YOU HAVE FAILED THE CITY'

3. eveyrone is so dumb. LOL. they dont have a brain.

4. how annoying is laurel? shes so dramatic. actually all the chicks in the show are dramatic. laurel particularly. just irritates me to no end. someone just kill her off.

5. the plot points dont change. theres no variety. same issues. same type of enemies. same method of resolution. same reactions, same lines, same shit.
im gonna make a comparison with Revenge, since the two shows kind of have the same mojo going on. Revenge started off with structured episodes like Arrows, but then it veered off when things got complicated, different characters got involved, emotions etc.
Arrows sticks to the eliminate everyone in the book goal like sticky rice.

oh man im like so demotivated i cant even talk further about the show. its just shitty LOL. bye


im back to add one further point.

oliver. he is too picture perfect to be likeable. he has his whole chiselled jaw, perfect facial hair, battle scars on a perfect body. he's emotionally damaged but if you pull a 'YOU HAVE TO OPEN YOURSELF UP TO SOMEONE *stomp*' on him, he will tear up and give you a heart wrenching story of his life. what kind of flaw is that? and his strong sense of justice, LIKE NO ONE CAN KILL PEOPLE BUT ME BY ACCIDENT. and NO ONE TOUCHES THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT. and 'I NEVER LEFT THAT ISLAND' yeah shut it LOL.
he's too flawless. doesnt work.
his damsel in distress just needs to call him and he will drop everything to be a knight in shining armour. mehhhhhhh

getting coal

ive been trapped at home with bed rest as per incompetent dr. (trust me she was, i dont label people incompetent for nothing). ive been too shitfaced to get outo f bed anyway. 

i got hit with ranodm infections on sunday and toay is sunday which means its been a week z z feels like 10 years. makes me feel so dirty having all these bugs urghhhhh. i miss health. just wanna bitch slap my poor excuse of an immune system. tho i guess all these infections ahve beat me to it. (get it?)

i had kk with the group on thursday. which was good :) but then when i went to start up my car and go meet my incompetent doctor, it wouldnt start. then hell ensued under the scorching over-enthused sun. with my sullen face and sweaty body i missed a tram and awaited another. as if that wasnt enough some indian guy started hitting on me as if i wasnt already greasing him off. (not racist or anything, but why do indian guys always hit on me? its sooo random because indian guys arent my type and i sure as hell dont want to be theirs) 

once i got to the drs, the receptionist asked me which doctor i wanted to see. i was like 'not fussed :)' not knowing i just lay out my own death bed. the receptionist goes 'oh ok! ill let you see dr. irgjljsgr. she'll be very happy to see you, she hasnt seen a patient in ages!! shes just sitting in her room! :)' 

i was all smiles. she was all smiles. 

until i saw the doctor. man i can see why shes not popular. she looked so bored to see me. didnt know what she was talking about either. i cracked a few jokes and tried to get a good dr-pt relationship going on but nah she wasnt having it haha. which got a part of me worried becuase i always like to have my drs emotionally invested in me so that theyll be more inclined to give me the best damn treatment LOL. but whatever! 

she wrote down some meds for me which for my own privacy i wont say. but they contraindiated with each other so i was like 'would it be better to start this after ive finished this course?' and she was like 'OHHH yes thank you for reminding me. you clever girl' 

i wasnt clever, it was common knowledge. so after taht i was like man not coming back, she needs to go back to school. 

so as i was leaving thought id give her a big grin to show my appreciation but nah she wasnt having that either. WHY ARE YOU A DOCTOR IF YOU DONT CARE FOR YOUR PATIENTS?! 

but after that was sorted i trammed back to my car. checked to see if it was working to which it wasnt so i called mum. we then called insurance who took their time. hours later im crying from exhaustion before some fucking allianz guy rocks up. i was relieved to see him until his cheery face started chuckling at my state. 

the insurance company i am with is merc so can i just say I FEEL LIED TO. i dont need some merc guy to rock up but if theyre affiliated with allianz, thats something the buyer should know. dont have an issue with allianz or anything, but still, it was suprising to see. i felt LIED TO. 

turns out my battery was messed up so he changed it over and viola, done. 

then i drove home, cried some more then slept. 

that was by far my worst day this year. good old 2013. squeezing in one extra misfortune. makes me think of mental health class. RESILIENCE YO.  im at the bottom of the ocean but im gonna leap out on a giant lobster or something. 

going to a diff doctor tmr to sort out some new symptoms that have arisen. i must have been a bad girl becuase this is all im getting for christmas :(