my dream, my yesterday, my NY resolution

i had a dream yesterday night that I was reading a book. when i woke up i was like whatevs mate, BUT OMG i realised later that to have read a book, my mind would have had to conjure up a book. right? i dont remember the storyline much but it was about a girl and she was on the train tracks or some shit. DID MY SUBCONSCIOUS WRITE A BOOK WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE? HOWWW and damn i forgot everythigna bout it :(
i just remember being really bored by it so i was flicking through to different sections. dayum. this might have been the birth of Twilight Remixed but my brain had to go and forget it all. i just remember a girl, she was running along the train tracks lol. and she was part of some group that was against...something. i think she was running from something. oh and her beloved companion got run over or some shit. urgh. im assuming by a train.

i was at the rich fest yesterday. was it always that boring? every food stall sells the same shit so instead of coming tehre to EAT EVERYTHING, its more going there to stake out the stall that sells the BEST of the same shit. and so many tb boys. and so many people you havent seen in a while. it gets hard. like do i hug you? or do i just wave across the street? do i acknowledge you? is it bad that i just laughed at you?
LOLOL my friend said taht i was really rude and abrupt cause i just said hi then dismissed him when in actual fact i was thinking 'aw its so good to see you!'.
i was really sleepy that day cause i had to get up at 5am that day to help my dear friend. it was so funny LOL. we planned for her to pick me up at 5:30 but when i woke up at 5 i foudn out she was more than ready to pick me up. so i literally had 10 minutes to get out of bed, use the bathroom and get changed. in the dark. i lost my phone somewhere in that time and it was hell holding a massive ipad creeping around looking for it. but it was more than hilarious now that i think back on it. id make a really shitty robber, but ive acquired new ninja skills. i also know how to fit a table into a car. maybe i can rob tables.


with my new years resolution, ive changed my mind about it like ten times. i really ceebs writing a story LOL. ive been writing small tidbits about candid moments in my life which i randomly remember, but i really fail at establishing distinguishing tones between characters. it all sounds liekt he same person is talking to the same person LOL. and theyre all such weak moments. tbh, it sounds like this blog LOL. but with more dialogue. like if i were to talk to myself in front of a mirror, you would hvae what ive been writing lol. BLEURGHHARGL. ive also half given up on my book blog. i suck so much at all this technical stuff, so its really hard to make it look unique. but then again, every other book blog out there looks absolutely busyt and stunning so my plain format in itself is one-of-a-kind. but it also screams out LAZY and INCOMPETENT. most of the time, i am neither. ive also read a few books since and havent bothered writing any review and i can barely remember whether or not i hated it or loved it sooooooo ...

i also havent been reading. no more time. my life begs me to live it.